The Law Ass Process...

841PM
Just had dinner
Feeling a bit full
Just watched Jamie oliver on tv… I love him so much!
Julie’s done half her essay but I’ve only got my intro and 1st para…
*fark* I cant footnote properly coz I cant find where I got my stuff… ><””
Im so scared of plagiarism (whteva) *fark*
Ok no more swearing for tonight…
*breathe in breathe out*

948PM
Finally got another paragraph done
Started to format properly my footnotes (it’s such a chore I recon)
My legs are hurting coz I’ve been sitting cross legged for the past hour… better get up and take a walk or something… argh…
It’s good how this time it’s not a word count by a page count: like we can write no more than 6 pages, which is really good because I don’t have to get all anal and fully do word count with each paragraph and think of different ways to re-phrase something so I can cut the paragraph to like 156 words instead of 158 or something. I hated it how I used to have like 14 words to cut down or something. 14 words man, it’s like a friggin sentence! And in law essays, especially ones with word counts, EVERY SENTENCE is friggin IMPORTANT ><”””
Ok im gonna take a walk around the house now, hope I don’t get distracted along the way… =P

1039PM
Ok ive done 2 out of the 6 pages we’re supposed to and im pretty proud of myself because it’s only 1039 right now. Im not planning to sleep tonight so I can *sort of* so tomoro wont be a full on rush.
Drinking some tropical juice thing I found in the fridge and im thinking, gosh, how much sugar am I filling my body up with? A lot. I’ve been munching on M&Ms I got from aunty mary yesterday at her place. Got there before chris and Joanne were awake. It was just a visit though, nothing much…
I think the lemon flavoured water thing is making me sick. Kinda nice in a disgusting way… haha great I sound like an idiot…
I feel like watching girl interrupted again but then I know I should stay in my room. At least this way, I know I’ll be forced to do my law assignment.
Footnoting is still a pain in the arse.

I was just skimming through my old blogs (November 2005 in particular) and I found this:
*blah blah about my final exams, shout out to my uni friends…*

so yes, let's list the things i want to do...

1) clean my room
2) learn how to park a car
3) look for a different job
4) eat and sleep more
5) knit (i know, i have been knitting for like the past 6 months... shhhhh)
6) watch all the tv i've missed out on... hehe
7) shop

ok, from that, I’ve done: (1), (4) and (7). Great. Im a farking loser. I told vivien I’ll knit her a scarf like a year ago… or maybe 2? And I still haven’t finished. *sigh* I hope I do get to end up doing some of the other things I wanted to this sem break… =)

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139AM
Yeh im planning to pull an all nighter. Jo called me an hour ago to ask about footnoting. Argh!! She’s written the whole thing already, but she just needs to footnote but I’ve been footnoting and stuff along the way. Maybe next time I should just write the whole thing out and then footnote? Will that take less time? It’s too late to try now, so maybe next time la…
Kenneth has just msged me to say happy easter. I haven’t chatted with this bummer (hahaha) for AGES! But then, bad timing dude! I’ve got my law assignment to do!! Hahaha…
Wai ho’s gone off to bed. I wanna sleep too. Everyone’s sleeping now. I wanna sleep too. Actually, I want a shower… ><””
Aight back to work…

212AM
I think im procrastinating more because I know im nearly done with my essay. My footnotes are pretty aight since I’ve been doing them alone the way. Now the only problem I have with my essay is whether it answers the question or not. I’ve basically ripped the questions apart and answered it in 2 sections. I do hope she doesn’t take marks off me because she recons I wasted half my paper describing something I didn’t have to. Gosh, who’s my audience? What am I supposed to assume? The thing is, im NOT assuming anything deep, so im taking it as if my audience nows NOTHING about property law and shyte… that’s why im friggin spending half my paper farking explaining and referencing the whole farking course notes… I really cant stand this but I have to…
I hope I pass… that’s all im asking for…
Ive just picked a convo with jonno coz im bored… he’s getting busted all the time in this game… how lucky… he gets to play games…

413AM
YAY!! IM DONE!! IVE OFFICIALLY FINISHED!!! My footnotes are done, too! Whoo hoo!!
The only thing is, I don’t think my whole essay is coherent… oh well!!!
Im at a point when I really don’t care anymore. I just hope I pass…
Raaaaaaaaaaaah!!! Im so happy!! Im gonna go to bed now! Yay!!! Whoo hooo!! O m g! literally man, I feel so great!

Anyways, tata la for now!

JYKW

NB: I do apologise for the unusual amount of swearing. Blame it on the stress. I’ll be back to normal next time. =)

Crook... again ><"""

gosh, the virus that's been going around for the last few months is still here people! i was really sick again last night... guess i still had the virus in me ><"" same symptoms, same everything... threw up after watching Devdas on SBS. dont we all just LOVE bollywood?? all these pretty 印度西施 prancing around singing. i love it!

right now, im *planning* to start typing up my law assignment. i've got the structure, the ideas are in my head. i hope i pass this essay!! *fingers crossed*

the picnic was fun~~ but the wind was messing up my hair. well, everyone's hair actually hahaha vivien and i were complaining how our part was messed up haha short hair makes it harder to maintain, i recon. =) the food was nice, as usual. we were basically lazing around in the sun (and the wind) but vivien and i did get to ride the bikes around the park (yeh like twice) and we both got really tired after that. think i've had enough exercise for the rest of this year... hahaha...

had to dog a farewell party last night because i had my law assignment and there was supposed to be a house warming party over at joanne & chris' house. but then they said their house wasnt ready yet (i think they need help cleaning the house and getting it ready haha). so i thought i'll get the whole evening/night to myself right? nooo, i just had to get sick. i tend to get sick all the time when a law assignment's due. it happens everytime since 2nd year (last year, yeh yeh, same thing). joe said im sick of law. ha, ha, really funny, i want to laugh... =P

but then i'm thinking, if it happens everytime, it's *not* a coincidence, you know? if it's like, once and twice, yeh, that'll be a coincidence, but if something happens for the third and forth time, i honestly think it's got NOTHING to do with coincidence. aunty mary said im too stressed about law (yeh, probably), aunty stephanie and aunty annie said i've got really high expectations of myself (i dont think so lor...). i mean, yeh, i probably had high expectations of myself in high school, but since 1st year sem 2, no. *high expectation* is just not in my dictionary anymore...

so what's going down these holidays? pam was suggesting a movie or something... proof isnt on anymore so im kicking myself for not making myself go see it at the cinemas. i've been thinking about...

Ice Age 2 (i know wai ho's up for this, so, anyone else???)
V for Vendetta (man, i had it soo wrong, i thought kiera knightley was natalie portman, how sad, but it doesnt stop me from wanting to watch this! how funny, gangsters speaking in an english accent... i think im too used to mafias and HKie 古惑仔 movies hahaha)
Match Point (just for scarlett... just for her... she's so beautiful)
March of the Penguins (i've booked james for this haha but im sure whoever wants to come can come! yay!! PENGUINS!! I LOOOOOOOVE PENGUINS!!)
Basic Instinct 2 (i know, sharon stone is a bit, hmm, for this, i wouldnt *mind* seeing this at the movies but then i wouldnt care if i dont either... gosh, i just want to see if she does that crossing her legs thing again... hahahaha)

these arent out yet, but i still wanna see...
The Fast and The Furious: Tokyo Drift (oh man fast cars, hot guys and pretty chics, what more do i need to say?)
Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest (johnny depp is hot. full stop)
In Search Of Mozart (i just want to, ok?)

i need new shoes. seriously, i NEED new shoes. yeh, and money, too.

let's just end this here, shall we?

JYKW

Taking My Mind Off From My Law Ass...

It’s been 2 weeks since my last entry… how’s everyone going?

I’ve had my mid sem tests and I kicked one while I basically got kicked by the other. Im currently (supposedly) rushing with my property law assignment research so I can write up a 6 pages essay by Tuesday 5pm. What this means is that im trying to cram 4 cases’ judgments, 7 essays and 3 books into my head so I can write up something substantiated. Gosh, the stuff I put myself through… mind you, every time for the past 2 years, I’ve been getting sick over the 4-5 days I cram for law assignments and law take homes. *touch wood* I don’t want to get sick right now because… like duh, who wants to get sick? Stupid Law Ass… argh!!

oh yeh, my hair's now above my shoulders. after getting kicked on tuesday evening by the mid sem, i went to eastwood to channel my frustration out by getting a new hair style. i wouldnt say it's new, coz i've had this before, but it was like during my TEENS... man, i do feel old now... carol and delanie recon my hair kinda looks like the one nicole richie had before... i've seen pictures of other famous people with hair like nicole richie, but then i dont think mine looks as perfect and nice as theirs... haha... under the light, the copper high lights i used to have are still vaguely there... yes, it's kinda disgusting to think that the colours have seeped into my scalp... (ok, im freaking myself out here now) but yeh, the colours are still vaguely visible: not full copper though, more like brown...

Went to cabra today with family for food. Man I love cabra and the cheapo shops there haha… Going to a picnic tomorrow with a few families and stuff, so I’ll keep you guys up to date next time on that…

Oooh yes, I’ve just posted a few pictures of the things I like (and wouldn’t mind having) on my msn space... But then I said I’ll dedicate this blogspot entry on the shoes I’ve been in love with since last month…

Although the ones I REALLY LOVE are in black and white, this is the closest I got with what google graphics gave me…

Balenciaga sandals by Nicolas Ghesquière



ABSOLUTELY HOTNESS!! The red seems really nice too, aye? I can soooooo wear this out… but the black and white ones are honestly really nice. I’ve taken a picture of them from a magazine with my phone so i can show u guys…



yeh, the quality’s crap… it’s a picture I took of the Autumn 2006 Time: Style & Design mag… but then, I’ve seen these sandals EVERYWHERE in magazines but I just CANT FIND THE PIC ON THE NET. Aiya!!! ><”” (the price of these sandals is $1 330... how... appropriate... ><""" *cough*) but they'r beautiful... gotta admit that!! haha

Carol and I were reading vogue during our econ350 lecture and there are soo many nice bags and shoes in the latest australian issue. But I’ve already spent my money on the latest Yen. Frankie has better clothes and articles than Yen these days, I recon (so does Carol, I think). We both recon Yen publishes good articles occasionally now. It used to be heaps better but im already stuck in the habit of buying each Yen that comes out. Hahahha… same with Frankie. I love Frankie. =D

Happy easter everyone, and have a safe long weekend…

Love,
JYKW

Ps. For those who haven’t been to my msn space, I use that to post pictures of the things I crave for… shopping makes me happy… hahahahaha

Froozie, READ THIS!!!

O M G

THIS IS FOR FROOZIE...

WHO'S HOT??? (please read the following para with one of those blonde *ah huh* tones)

o m g hello, froozie, how can i EVER forget KYLIE MINOGUE?!?!? like, i've been in love with her since... like, since high school!!! nerr!! yes, she'll always look pretty and hot and DUH i love her music...

hehehe omg have i ever told you how joe was gonna get tickets for me and him (duh) to go watch her concert BEFORE her whole cancer thing?? i was soo happy when he said he could get really good tickets coz he was at CBA and stuff... but then she got sick... i was sad when she was sick... awww BUT NOW SHE'S GETTING BETTER!! WHOO HOO!!

it's just that i get bagged out all the time when i talk about kylie minogue... joe keeps on telling me how she's not THAT great but since i like her, he'll just accept her (or something like that... i tend to tune out when he bags me and kylie out...)

oh lee harding is just crap. gosh, get a life lee... BUT SERIOUSLY, ROGUE TRADERS!!! ARGH!!! gosh i hate that chic when she's on neighbours... (omg i cant remember her name right now and i dont want to google her haha) but she's soo cool hahahaha... froozie, seriously, rogue traders... serious...

not lee harding... please... (ARGH [crap] I'VE IMMORTALISED LEE HARDING ON MY BLOG!! NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! ><""" that's it im gonna go bold kylie's name...)

anyways, im outta here in like... hmm... 1 hour and 15 mins!! WHOO HOO!! so im kinda in a hurry right now, but i thought i'll make this entry just for afroooooooooooooooooooz... hehehehehe

oh yeh had a mid sem today... FULLY O M G hahaha... more on that next time...

love you heaps froozie hahahahaha and i'll see you at uni... somewhere... haha


JYKW

Dropping By To Say Hi

it's been a few days since my last entry here. =) im not procrastinating on the net! yay!

yeh, im over the whole depression state now. i think it really is hormonal and i should try to somehow control it? resolve it? sometimes i think if i dont control it, it kinda gets the better of me.

it's so true when they say good things come in waves (same with bad things) and i recon it's all because of our heart. it's like, we're already traumatised by the initial incident and everything else we experience will somehow be related to that initial thing. it's just a matter of observing and accepting, i recon. *sigh* it's easy for me to say all this now because im not *in* the whole hormonal state. thank God that only happens for 2-3 days every month. =)

contentment brings happiness.

right now, im just waiting for the songs to transfer into my phone so i can listen to them at uni. hkie music is really getting annoyingly crap lately, and im a little too behind in jap music to catch up... what to do?

i was at mac cen with jo on thursday and we have officially decided who's hot and who's not in terms of music/entertainment...

hot is...
PCD (!!!)
robbie williams
james blunt
rogue traders (!!!)
gwen stefani (thats just from me haha)

just nono...
maroon 5

yeh that's about it for the *not*s... hahaha it's only because our maroon 5 cd is gathering dust at home.

who do i just cant get enough of? norah jones! her songs make me feel so much better. even though i blast rock music into my ears: into my brain, during my lows of the month, i still turn to norah for that special... umm... comfort (?) i need. too bad none of my exs appreciated my special *mellow* collection of kd lang, norah jones, jewel etc etc. it would be nice if i can share my special music with my special someone... =) they've all kinda stuck to one type of music and especially one ex who has a rock band of his own...

over the past month, apart from *proof*, which i really want to see, still, i've wanted to chuck a visit to the art gallery. carol, jo and i were at SAM on thursday afternoon (after the whole evacuation thing jo and i (mainly me, i admit) started in our econ350 lecture...) and we saw these postcards advertising sam taylor-wood's *crying men* (2002-2004). carol and i were like *omg i really want to go see that* and it was like really cool because we literally said it at the same time. we both have even seen the same reviews and articles on it. =D i really hope i do get a chance to go see it at MCA... ooh ooh and i would also like to see *self portrait: renaissance to contemporary* at the NSW art gallery. *haii* it's really hard to find someone who thinks on the same wave length as ourselves and actually appreciates similar things. *i think i'll take my mum to the art gallery*... haha!!

i've spent a long time today trying to look for my tweezers. i seriously recon i had my tweezers on my table. ><""" i really need them!! aiya!!

ooh one thing that made me really happy today was when i found out *proof* is shown at this random cinema at circular quay. gosh, why didnt i read the paper before? the net sucks when it comes to random movie theatres... hehehe i hope it's still showning when i get the chance to go!

anyways, my phone's ringing~ sooo

tata la~

JYKW

*haii AZNs...

got this off a random person's site...

http://www.i-am-bored.com/bored_link.cfm?link_id=15733

it was funny when i was watching it, but then it doesnt really say anything...

so what's with asian chics and white guys? i dont know... oh well, im not gonna waste time thinking about these things again... hahaahahaha

hehe~~

enjoy!

JYKW

YAY!!! THIS IS SO COOL!!!

this is so cool!! got the quiz thing off christy's xanga...

You scored as French. French! French 75% HongKonger 75% Chinese 60% British 55% Japanese 45% Aussie 45% German 35% American 30% Taiwanese 25% Singaporean 15% What will you be after reborn? (translation)

HOW COOL IS THAT!?!?!? IM GONNA BE HKIE AND FRENCH!! WHAT A DREAM COME TRUE!!! so basically, im like a french, a hkie, a chinese and a bit like a brit~~ that's seriously awesome. hehehehehehehehe i cant get over this!!!

hehehehehehehehehe!!! OUI OUI!!! hai arrrrrrrrrr!! i feel i am chiu ging lor!!

hoi sum sei lar!!! hehehehehehehehehehehehe... =D

JYKW

Like, Don't...?

today was pretty *ok* until the last few minutes.

had breakfast at macca's with mum... wow i havent had that for AGES! maybe, like a month or something. haha. anyways what happened then isn't important.

during my property lecture, i drew a flower on jon's notes just to distract him. because seriously, when you're studying and you see like a little drawing on your notes from your friends, IT TOTALLY CHUCKS YOU OUT OF CONCENTRATION MODE. hahaha even like a little distraction like a line or like those little smiles =) hahaha. well, at first i drew a flower on jon's notes and called him gay. and then he drew a beer bottle and wrote *beer*. i was like *err*... and so i made the whole corner of his paper a massive master piece... there was a flower, a tree with an owl sitting inside, 2 birds, 2 clouds, a sun with a smiley face and grass patches... jo cracked up at us two and then jon drew a friggin drumstick ><""" i thought i was smart because i drew a massive burger on the next page of his notes. HAHAHAHA

speaking of distractions, jo was telling me how when she ws studying crim last year, she saw a flower i drew on her notes during our tut and that totally threw her off and made her think of all the shopping we did and stuff in HK... and then i remembered how last year in my crim tut, andre wrote hi on my notes when i hardly talked to him and he said he wanted to distract me when i study crim.... i told him i dont study the notes i write in my tut... HAHAHAHA IDIOT!!! sucked in loser...!!!

yeh that's law for you...

haha... then i had my weekly property law tut and it sucked totally. i hate property law. i hate law. i hate uni. i just want to go out and shop and work and get money and spend money etc etc.

jo and i have decided to meet up tomorrow for coffee before econ350 at 1. it's already a week since we jigged that lecture to go shop in the city. that was so fun last week. can't believe it's been a week, A WHOLE FRIGGIN WEEK already. it's not fair. i want my 3 months summer holidays again. i basically didnt have a holiday because i had summer school.

i hope im not going to screw up any subjects this semester. i mean, i've had my share of getting screwed over with uni results... ive totally given up on the things that distracted me from doing uni work and honestly, PLEASE dont let me fail. ><""""

totally traumatised... not funny...

what's not funny is how disgusting my presentation result was o m g it's not fair. this week's people were let off soo much lighter than last week. my tutor was so strict with us last week and then this week she gets some other tutor to come in and she's like fully nice and gave answers for everything. it's not funny. my mark is a total disgrace. i've never done so bad in ANY LAW PRESENTATION before. ><"""

yes, depression is setting in once again... uni sucks...

i mean, i was already cut enough last night when adults told me that my behaviour is *slutty* (in layman terms). i was literally *WTF?!?!* when they were being such cryptic bytches and hinted how i lead guys on by how i laugh and smile and talk and stuff... gosh, am i like totally wrong to get embarrassed? oh so im not supposed to laugh or smile anymore? or am i not allowed to blush when im embarrassed?

so basically, guys dig the way im a friggin spastic around people? to me, i honestly dont care how guys around me feel or act or whatever because if they're stupid enough to think im leading them on or think they can have a chance, then obviously it's not my problem and it's out of my reach to help them.

moving on, road rage. i admit, im one of those people with attitudes on the road who encourages others not to let people cut in front. it was totally jammed on epping road this evening and there were all these jackasses who thought they could drive on the T3 lanes just to cut into the jam. i got pissed off and told dad not to let anyone cut in front. haha interestingly enough, dad acutally listened to me. and guess what, this guy fully gave us the finger when his car was like 30cms away from our car. but then dad was so nice to let him cut in front.

my justification for not letting them in is that they shouldnt abuse the T3 lanes like that. and then dad was saying how that would increase the chance of a collision. my reasoning behind that is that people are not stupid enough to let their own car come THAT close to another car. they'll expect you to let them cut in but then if you ignore them and drive straight forward, they'll give up because they wouldnt want to scratch their car. i dont care. come close. scratch my car. i dont care... hahaha dad called me stubborn... i say im going to stick to my principles. =) i'll let them in when i feel like it.

yes, im feeling bytchy lately.

i'll get over it. it's hormonal.

JYKW

Long Time No See...

im at uni right now... waiting for 5pm to come ><""

im finding these blogging moments i get at uni are getting a bit boring... it's like, im just doing this to pass time. nothign interesting to say.

oh well, so what happened today?

ooh, mum's car died again and this time, the stupid bomb's fan wasn't working properly. like it wasnt connected properly to the batteries or somethng. i've never seen a car mech. with such clean hands before. his finger nails were all white and clean. made me wonder if he knew what he was doing. haha...

and then when i was over at an aunty's house for food, this guy called me out for lunch. i was like errr when i first saw his name flashing on my phone. seriously, i've only seen him once and gosh that was last year. i dont even remember HOW he looks. i saw his name flashing and i was like thinking to myself *ummmm who the...* haha it was kidna weird because he asked if i remembered who he was and i was like *umm of course i remember, i havent deleted u from my phone yet* aiya im slack... oh well, moving on...

i was printing the notes i need for tonight's lecture when this guy LITERALLY came up behind me and was FULLY staring over my shoulders. i was sooooo annoyed. i gave him the BIGGEST *nice* DIRTY ever and he backed up like 5cms. i didnt like that at all. so i took me time clicking here and there just to waste time. i had to get my revenge. muahahahahahaha. and then i couldnt help myself and i said to him *if u want to print u can use the other computer next to me* i was trying to be nice. i tried. gosh i felt soo uncomfortable. i hate it when randoms breathe down my neck like they're watching everything i do. i so didnt care if he was in a hurry. but then i saw there was a long line behind him so i picked up my own things and went to the other computer. i was only doing that for the other people. NOT HIM.

I WANTED TO KICK HIM!!! argh!! NO ONE and i say NO ONE WILL EVER PRESSURE ME LIKE THAT!!! honetly, i wouldnt kick him, but if he stood any closer i would have told him off... not like i've never done that to a stranger giving me the creeps...

ok im a bitch.

let's end on that note.

=P

JYKW

ps. yay yesterday was the first day of my 49CAP!!! whoo hoo!! im not gonna spend that much on my phone bill anymore!! yay!! im so happy. oh yeh and i asked mum to fully explain the terms and conditions of my financial/physical grounds. im happy with the compromises... =)

Why???

this is so not fair. the movie i really want to see isnt shown at the cinemas near me. ><""

i really want to see Proof but then it's just not shown ANYWHERE close to me. that's such a bytch. ><""

~~

im at uni right now, waiting for pam and carol to get here. gosh im feeling cold coz the air con is literally, directly above me. *shivers*.

oooh, shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. dont tell anyone. I SPENT MONEY TODAY!!! whoo hoo!! i got new eye shadow from chanel. hahaha okok, it's not that bad because i was going to get it last week. so from today, im totally serious with this financial grounding business. ooh yeh, just to add to the list, i got a new top from jayjays on saturday. IT WAS $5, OK??? bargain. cheap. there you go. and it had a really good message on it... REALLY GOOD... im not gonna post it up coz then it wouldnt be funny when you readers see it.

mum's not gonna know. muahahahahahahahahahaha *evil laughs harder* MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

i was at borders bookshop this arvo when i was waiting for chris and jo, and i saw the lost in translation soundtrack. hahaha i guess there is another copy out there!! but then when i was about to take it to the counter, i remembered... i had to get the pink eye shadow from chanel. =) oh how cheap was i today??!! i stood in front of the tv at borders just to watch pride and prejudice. hahaha keira knightley is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo pretty. and and who's the guy from bridget jones?? umm umm, colin firth? *let me google that frist*... yeh omg colin firth is SOOOOOOOOOOO handsome. seriously, if i was bridget jones, i'd be like omg who cares about hugh grant... ><"" i think it's the english accent... gosh, Renée Zellweger does it soooooooo well. i wish i can, too... =S

hmm there's this guy sitting at my 10 o'clock... o m g wht's his problem? every now and then when i look up to think, he's like staring at me. do i have something on my face? crap... let me check... ERR NOOOO... that's it, im leaving this place...

tata la~~

SHOUT OUT: JIEUN... I HOPE THE ARTICLE I POSTED ON MY XANGA HELPED YOUR FRIENDS =)

JYKW

Anal

SHOUT OUT: TO YEWON FOR KICK STARTING MY FEMINISM THINGIE IN HER BLOG. TO *BON* FROM YEWON'S BLOG FOR BLOG-STALKING ME (am i supposed to know you?). BOBBIE FOR CHEERING ME ON WHEN I WAS WRITING THE OTHER *CONTROVERSIAL* JANE AUSTEN WANNABE ENTRY.

last time i made an entry FULLY on zero tolerances: when i first started to blog on my xanga. that was literally my first blog entry and yes, i was already so full on opinionated about petty things in life. HEY!! im a chic. GET OVER IT.

now, i shall start with what i am FULLY ANAL with.

how my money is organised in my wallet. all windows must be aligned. all notes must be put in ascending order. all notes will be straight: no creases, no folds. i really do hate it when my money's upside-down or when the clear bits (hence windows) arent aligned. or when a corner is folded in and when i take that note out, im like *errr ARGH!* that is why im not into those small wallets because i like to lay my note money straight in my wallet. hate it when customers come in and pay for flowers or something with scrunched up money. IT'S JUST NOT RIGHT. ok?

punctuation. i hate it when people misplace apostrophes and commas. it's really irritating. makes me want to scream and tell them to re-write the whole thing.

yeh these 2 things are really important to me. gives me the shytes if someone violates any of my laws.

are you anal, too?

JYKW

Solitare (and the sound of my own thoughts...)

What are you doing now?
blogging

No, i meant before...
i was playing solitare on my computer and before that i was playing solitare on my phone...

Why?
because im bored

Why?
because i have nothing to do(?)

Oh really?
no, i actually do have a lot to do

Then why dont u do those things?
because im procrastinating

Gosh, just stop it!
well, tell me to stop talking to myself in my head then i will...

oh well, too bad, you're crazy...
but solitare is so fun! (fark, i am hearing voices in my head...)


JYKW

ps. and yes, that seriously was what i was thinking before. ><""" better get on with the stuff due tomoro now.

tata la~

Back to work, with Jane Austen...

before anything happens, check out the break up article ive posted on my xanga!!!

ok continuing on...

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wow, it's the first day back at work after nearly 2 weeks of dole-bludging. im feeling quite relieved actually because i didnt realise how much i missed work. apart from the money i get (CA$H!!), it's the incredibly long periods of time i get to myself at work, when i can contemplate different issues in life: mainly just *stuff* that happens in *my* life.

im starting to appreciate work.

i've just rejected an invitation to a monthly meet up thing, which i have been waiting for since the beginning of the month, purely because im grounded, both physically and financially. im kicking myself for the huge amounts i have spent, but i must admit, a big chunk of my money went to 3G.

im a loyal customer.

had my last taste of freedom yesterday when i (shh dont tell mum), jigged a 3 hour-lecture, just to go shopping and hang out with jo in the city and then met up with ross for a movie/dinner. i did try to invite more people to the movie but then i got dogged. not the first time, and it aint the last.

i can resist from spending. i CAN!

i havent enjoyed myself like yesterday for a long long time. possibly because i knew im going to get incarcerated as from today: I am financially grounded and physically grounded… so who wouldnt make the most out of their last day? i did control myself from leaking funds from my wallet, or injecting useless crap into my collection of freebies, whichever way you want to look at it. the shiseido ladies were really pushy but the YSL guy was really nice. i havent smelt the concoction of so many eau de parfum, eau de toilette, creams, lotions, whatever fragrances, for so long. yet, i have not felt so stingy literally like an asian for so long.

it's in my blood to be a tight-ass.

the body shop was fun. REALLY FUN! sting-i-ness has never been so great in my life before. jo and i tried on so many bronzers, eye shadows, lip glosses etc etc that our arms and the back of our hands were covered with different shades of foundation, concealers, whatever make up a girl can buy. the best part was when jo wanted to take these bronzers off her cheeks because they LOOKED CRAP (seriously, the body shop should not have them on the shelves) so what did TIGHT-JESS do??? i got the cleansing cotton pads, squirted tester aloe vera cleansing milk on, and helped jo cleanse her face. i even got her tea-tree refreshening toner as well. HAHAHAHA TRUST ME TO MILK THE JUICES OUT OF TESTERS!!!

must admit: im still cool, even when im tight.

met up with ross after that. watched *when a stranger calls* instead of *proof* because george street cinema was TOO CRAP to show it. i still REALLY WANT TO watch *proof* but i guess i'll have to wait for next time.

JYKW is now a movie critic.

i shall give the movie a 6/10, max, 6.5/10. ross gave it a 4.5/10. HE FAILED IT!! i recon it's because of the chic's brows. GET OVER THEM. hahaha but it was funny that you mentioned them... especially when i was freaking out to the max. comic relief, yes thanks. the movie was literally 1.5 hours of scary cliches, and i must say, i am still TOTALLY susceptible to those kind of cliches. there was a point in the movie when i thought i'd break because i was literally freaked. WHAT A PSYCHO??!?!?! AND I'VE BEEN MISSING NO CALLER ID PHONE CALLS LATELY, TOO!!! *sigh* i have decided to watch scary movies with my family and no one else. im kinda feeling bad now because i was blocking ross' blood circulation...

all guys should wear striped tops.

one of my criteria for guys to look remotely hot is to wear my beloved(?), fetish you may call it, striped tops. be it horizontal or vertical, preferbaly horizontal, all guys will look AMAZINGLY HOT in those tops: even if they are only *mediocre*. =) one of the deepest impression i had of my great companion, ross, was his striped cotton on top. it was the first thing i saw and the main thing i looked at throughout the afternoon/evening/night. i did notice some other things like his eye lashes and ears, but the top was nice. ahh... stripes...

answers will only be given to those who observe.

I don’t know why, but heaps of people have been asking me what kind of guy im looking for. I guess it’s time for me to publicly announce what I appreciate and what gives me the shits in a guy, aye?

Practicality is superior to ideals: even in a relationship.

There was one time when jess L blogged a list of things that she wants in a guy. and my comment was this:

At 12:17 AM, January 16, 2006, JYKW said…
hmm i recon the final 2 are probably the MAIN ones that u'd HAVE TO HAVE right? hahahahmm some practical points to think about...

- does he have money?
- does his personality stinks around other people other than me?
- does his family understand and look after me like a family member or like some *outsider* who got married into the family and they recon they can use me like a maid?
- are our aspirations in life similar?
- i can stand his bad stuff now coz we're in love, but once we live together and get married and have children, will i still be able to *over look* his stupidity?
- is he gonna work me like a maid?
- how does he define *cheating*?

i'v been thinking abt stuff like this too... and then i've realised a lot of guys our age are really massive retards...

better look for someone at least 3-4 years older i recon...

good luck jess!!!

JYKW

right now, I shall list what I want and don’t want in a guy, even though im starting to feel asexual these days. Guys will really have to convince me hard they’re good enough… *sigh*… why can't two people of different gender, be good friends with no *other* intentions?

character is really important. A person who’s nice to me but not others is crap. If he can be a prick to others, he can be a prick to me. what really SHITS me, and i mean TOTALLY, ABSOLUTELY PISSES THE CRAP OUT OF ME, is when a guy deliberately changes or temporarily adapts to things you like in order to get your attention. it really irritates me when i end up discovering that he's a superficial bastard who has NO OPINION of his own and lives in what other GIRLS have in their minds. if you're not into what a chic is, SO BE IT. you dont have to *try it out* and seem like you have heaps in common with her. if you have a great personality, you can get on with EVERYONE. that is one other thing i have zero tolerance for. ZERO TOLERANCE.

Aspirations in life, both material and spiritual, must be really similar. Well, in my case, hopefully identical. It would be hard and stupid to let religion or our careers’ aspirations to get in the way of a relationship. If I want to be a massive CFA and he wanted to fix someone’s water pipes, I don’t think it’ll work. Im not going to have a husband who cant appreciate and empathise with the stress I have at work.

Education and career must be on par. The guy obviously, has to earn more than me, which would be pretty easy. But education wise, and likewise to the above said, if our careers are totally different, it’s only difficult for the other half to understand and make you feel better. On the other hand, say if I was with a doctor or a brain surgeon, then it would be fine because both parties would have had a similar amount of education. I am not going to lower myself for love: I am not going to be with a guy who is half as educated as me. How am I supposed to take him out to social gatherings? If the only thing he can talk about is mahjong and cars, and the people at the social gathering are there to talk about say the latest research results in cancer cures or the absurdities in the Australian tax system, or the relationship an economy has with the legal system, it would only be EMBARRASSING for the guy. Such male-ego decimation will only lead to uncalled for arguments. The relationship would be impractical.

Income MUST be on par or the guy must be earning more than me, during EVERY STAGE in life. I am not going to be the one paying for the phone bill (I’ve had enough with my own already), im not going to pay off the mortgage myself, I am not raising my 6 children (at this rate, hopefully 3-4) alone. The guy is the breadwinner, great! Let’s leave it that way.

Physical appearance DOES matter… A LOT.

I admit im not hot. I admit im not pretty. I admit im not the best looking person. I’d be Jessica alba if I were hot. I’d be kylie minogue if I were sexy. I’d be Angelina jolie if I were hot AND sexy. I’d be zhang ziyi if I were pretty. I wouldn’t be Jessica wong if I were cute.

After all the confessions, the only reason why anyone would want to take the next step after *meeting* a person, would be to check them out. The whole personality crap only kicks in when you start to observe the person as a potential. Why go out with someone who you cant even look at for 2 minutes without a break? Who cares what other people thinks, if you cant look at him straight into his eyes and be comfortable, then forget about him. However, it does occur, quite often as well, when the affinity comes and you feel attracted to someone who you’ve NEVER thought of before. Good for you then. But for those who's time hasn’t come, just check out the eye candies you have around you. When demand is high for a commodity, in BASIC ECONOMIC THEORY, supply would naturally increase to stabilise the imbalance and hence, equilibrium will be met. So if everyone only cared for the eye candies, then naturally all guys would pursue a hotter/better physical appearance. Simple.

Age is very important to me. So far, it has, due to personal experiences, been the point of decision for me, as to whether I should feed the infatuation, or whether I should just let it pass. I know that a few strong friendships I have with people of the opposite gender are only there because I did not allow the otherwise to occur. Going out with those guys, who happened to be younger than me: be it a year or 2 months, would have totally jeopardised the strong friendship bonding I have with those guys. And it would have added to the list of failures I have had. Either way, older men is the way. I am not going to celebrate my 56th birthday BEFORE HIS 56th birthday.

The rest: height, weight etc etc. is purely up to the individual. But to be honest, why would a girl go out with a guy who looks thinner than herself??? Why would a girl be with a guy who is barely taller than herself??? Any intellectuals would understand that.

Oooooooooooh, one of the latest HOT HOT HOT debates I’ve been having with different groups of friends at uni and with a few high school friends, has been revolving around the issue of culture. In layman terms, should a person’s skin colour restrict the number of partner choices they have in life? Im not talking about minor differences like say, a Burmese with a Cambodian, or a hkie with a shangie. Im speaking of TOTAL differences like the parents of the hottest eur-asians around. Oz+chink, French+jap, Italian+indian. Personally, I don’t care about other people. But I have realised how bigoted I have been. White guys, although they cant jump, they can be nice, too. Great companions, great friends to talk to. Maybe it’s just because I can chat with practically anyone? Maybe im just easily entertained? But my bottom line is still the same: unless I really cant help falling in love with a non-asian, then it wouldn’t even cross my mind: the idea of spending my life in 2 different cultures. Our own culture’s dinner shall be served on alternate days and Sundays will be the day when the left overs are eaten: Sunday is the Holy Sabbath Day and also Multicultural Day in the family. i cant commit. not now.

My children will speak cantonese, mandarin, english and hopefully japanese. But for the sake of my children’s appearance, I will let them have a European father, since I already have the hot asian genes. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

If I can be picky, so can others. But my point is: I DON’T CARE IF THEY ARE PICKY.

Anyone can be my friend. I will be nice to everyone. But it does not mean I wont be picky with who im planning to spend the rest of my life with. One of the biggest mistake for a girl is to get married too early or too impetuously. One of the biggest mistake for a married couple is to divorce on the drop of a hat. So divorce is seriously, NOT an option. It’s a mistake.

The number one reason for divorce is marriage.

Got that from Pam. Pretty true. Basically, once you’re married, forget about the option of divorce. You made the decision. You stick to it. If it’s torture, you are the only person to kick: not your husband, because he’s done nothing bad. You failed to notice the unbearable flaws in his character and habits. You cope with it like you did when you guys were going out. Tough luck.

If there is one thing I cant stand in life, then it’s anything with 6 legs or more.

After the whole *spider in my room* ordeal, I am finally back in my own comfort zone. Within the security of these four walls, I can nearly taste freedom in the air.

Nearly.

I will live through this financial-slash-physical grounding.

I can.

JYKW

Confessions of A Big Spender

*yes, i admit, im a big spender.*

there you go, a confession... hahahaha...

my bank a/c keycard is going to migrate to a nice, little box on top of my shelves tomorrow, which means i'll have an extra card space in my wallet. next week, my credit card is going to migrate over to the box, too, meaning there'll be 2 empty card slots in my wallet.

why?

because i really need to cut down on my spending. haha it's not funny, i see shops, i spend. i see a skirt in my size (not telling what that is... wakakaka), i spend. i see whatever, i spend. so, if i dont have the cash, nor the cards, then i CANT spend. i was planning to go cold turkey, but then that'll be just totally immoral and i'll be just squirming in pain... *sigh*

what about my phone bill?

it's a lot better these days from the $X00 i used to spend monthly... now, it's only like $100+. BUT!! in order to show my sincerity of this... umm... *cut-my-spending-enthusiasm*, i have changed from my 99CAP to a 49CAP. this means, once i spend $50, i'll only pay $49 and i get $230 worth of cap service. that's heaps better because then i can still call people like close uni friends and other significant randoms of my life and just talk on the phone... hahahaha... significant randoms... *no offence. but hey, at least u got mentioned in my blog, yeh? maybe... NO MAYBE*. basically, my aim is the 29CAP, but then i know im not the type to be able to withstand the tortures of going cold turkey. ><""" *so help me God...*

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today, i was like ||-----------------------------|| this close to bumping into joe at uni. but then, nah, didnt happen in the end. woah!! had a full on rally of sms-es with him and in the end, i caught a lift home and he caught the bus, which i would have caught if i wasnt so slow. hahahaha... mondays are sooo stuffed up for me. ><"""

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it's like the wee hours of the so called *morning* but it's still VERY DARK.. PITCH BLACK to be honest, which is why i have half a million lights on in my room. *sigh* i better get back to bed...

tata la

JYKW

AZA AZA FIGHTING!!! (as Rain would say... ahh Rain... he's so hot... *fans self*)

Movies

CAN PEOPLE STOP CALLING ME UNDER *NO CALLER ID* PLEASE??? IT'S REALLY IRRITATING BECAUSE I CAN'T CALL YOU BACK... if you want to stay mysterious and anon, then dont expect yourself to be *important* to me because i only call those who i think is important enough for me to return their calls... get it? *argh* seriously, phone companies should put a ban on those *no caller id* thing. it would really help those people who get stalked because the phone would not be an option for stalkers.

im munching on some lollies right now... not a healthy sign of studying... gosh im on the net blogging, how can i be studying? *gee*...

there are a few movies i want to watch...

brokeback mountain (maybe i should read the book first?? hmm... jake is so hot...)
match point (scarlett is SOOOOOOOOO PRETTY!! literally fell in love with her since lost in translation. best movie EVER!! whoo hoo i downloaded the trailer onto my phone for free from 3G!! yay!!)
proof (jake is so hot (i repeat, jake is so hot) and anthony hopkins is cool, gwyneth paltrow is pretty good... the whole story line sounds really great... maths, relationships, mental illness... IT'S SOOO MY TYPE OF MOVIE!!)

anyone up for a movie during the week... like... next week maybe? hehehehehehe

JYKW

ps. does anyone have last week's sunday paper? i havent finished one of the articles but my mum's recycled it coz she thought i have ><""" argh!!

plastic...

the final plastic sticky thing on my phone has finally fallen off...

my phone is now very naked indeed... totally vulnerable to cracks and scratches...

im dogging work again... trying to prepare for my property law tut presentation...

OBVIOUSLY im NOT getting anywhere ><""

better turn my computer off...

*FOINE!*

JYKW

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CELINE!!

didnt go to work today because my tummy was hurting... ><"" far out im gonna go broke soon... i cant get sick anymore!! argh!!

SHOUT OUT: GRACE, CELINE, YOONG... AND EVERY OTHER *MARCH-IAN* HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! VIVIEN, THANKS FOR YOUR GIFTS!!!

just had dinner with celine for her 21st. it was really great to see a few of my high school friends, for a massive catching up session.

what really fascinates me (yeh, i've caught that word off you, oh french teacher ><"") is that everyone is like FULLY PRETTY AND HOT AND GOOD LOOKING!! like wow, I HAVE REALLY HOT FRIENDS WHO DRESS NICE!!! yay!!! and they're all MINE MINE MINE!!! hahahaha... it's just that i've realised how people do become pretty as they age. it's a different type of prettiness, i mean, i've always known i have pretty friends (because people with similarities hang around each other right?) well, now everyone's literally prett-i-fied. im impressed... and feeling pretty, too because im REALLY HAPPY TO SEE MY HIGH SCHOOL FRIENDS!! WHOO HOO!!

and vivien got me a new fragrance... secret wish by anna sui... basically we got that for denise for her 20th birthday and we both fell in love with it and just cant get enough of it hahahahaha... ohohOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOH vivien, my AIYA sister, got me a mini make up case with a lolly and a few fake, really tiny and cute make up equipments from HK!! it's soo cute!! she said she remembered how i wanted a make up case before she went to hk and so she got me a toy one O M G IT'S SOO CUTE I CANT GET OVER IT!! THANKS VIVIEN!!

now, to the story of public transport... AGAIN...

on my journey TO chatswood, i missed the bus i wanted to catch by like... |-----| this much which also measures out to be about 20metres in distance... yes, i missed my bus by like a dot of a second because the bus driver was too ANAL to let me get on just because i was 20metres away from the bus stop curb... i mean, i was already jumping up and down like an idiot and i was running as well! gosh!! and then he shrugs his shoulders at me when he drove past... HOW ANNOYING!!

ok that's fine... all cool, who cares about that... the scary thing happened (well not scary scary... not spooky scary) was when i totally forgot about my 1030PM curfew and FULLY forgot to leave at 9PM to catch the bus back to eastwood station. mum called me at like 921PM to ask where the bus was and i was like *O M G IS IT 9 ALREADY?* and mum was like *aiya what are you doing? dont you know what you're supposed to be doing?* and so, i basically fled the restraunt (sorry celine for leaving so fast and sorry vivien for not giving you the rest of the money). ok, so now im like *omgomg where's the bus stop again?!?!?* because chatswood all different now esp when im not in a car and getting driven around... seriously, ants see things different to us humans, so it's like the roads and crossings are so complicated when you're walking as compared to when you're in a car... hahaha... stupid analogy there... anyways, so im like trying to get to the bus stop and so i asked this bus driver where's the 545 parra bus stop. i check the timetable and it said i had JUST missed the 922PM bus and the next one comes at 1022PM (WHY DOES THIS ALWAYS HAPPEN TO ME?!?!?!?!?!?!???!!?!? WHY WHY WHY!?!?!?!)... and so i freak out inside coz i cant get home (and it's dark and im alone and it's getting cold... oh and im pretty and hot so it's dangerous for a chic like me to hang around... blah blah yeh yeh) so i asked the bus driver where the TAXIS are and he's basically like *oh u need to get home, aye?* and i was like *yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh* ...

anyways, so im on the taxi now and im like *ahhhh safety*... so im at eastwood station and mum comes and im home... YAY!!

so now, im thinking, in the near future, i can do whatever i want because my parents cant say jack about me anymore since im literally following their demands and stuff... im giving them everything they want now, so yeh!! whoo hoo...!! conform and you shall be salvaged... freedom will be granted!! yay!! ok i'll shut up... haha

i was just re-motivated and was given hope that i will graduate by froozie over msn...

QUOTE
(l) f r o o z i e . says:
see, you dont have to be the bestest person in the world to graduate
jessica wong | Jessica wonG | jessiCA wong http://vfpxt.vodafone.com.au/events/pxtwall14/20060301/1141171722-0.html says:
YAY
jessica wong | Jessica wonG | jessiCA wong http://vfpxt.vodafone.com.au/events/pxtwall14/20060301/1141171722-0.html says:
I'VE GOT HOPE
UNQUOTE

i really cant get over this make up set thing my sister got me... wow... haha...

oh yeh!! guess what!!! i've totally finished the bubble game i downloaded onto my phone this morning... the whole 50 levels were soo hard to bust BUT I DID IT!! YAY!! and the end credits of the game came up too!! and it was like *thank you for playing* and *congratulations* or something...

today was fun...

JYKW

procrastinating BIG TIME

got this off jenn's msn space...

yes im procrastinating AGAIN and checking out ppl's blogs... hehehe

is this really me?

JYKW

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You are a Mild Mama

You don't have to be screaming at the top of your lungs to have a good time You rather chill, soak in the moment, and appreciate life for what it is Guys appreciate your "take life as it comes" approach... (Though they wouldn't mind if you got a little wild from time to time!)

Today...

how cool... i told my mum i finish at 7PM this evening when i actually finish at 6PM... and that's not all, the lecture finished at 5PM instead of 6PM... GREAT! now im a massive nigel in the library... ><""" raaah!!

i just got my palm read by a friend... wow, what's his name again? haha i remember in 1st year when i TOTALLY forgot his name and intro-ed him to someone else with a wrong name... haha im DEFINITE his name is JON... ><"" but then again, i'll clarify next time... hahaha but then again, aiya, wouldn't it be TOTALLY embarrassing to ask again esp. when i've had embarrassed myself before... how offensive of me to do that to him ><"" im an idiot... yes...

oh yeh, my palm... im gonna be DAYMN RICH... (as if...) because of the 2 moles i have on my palm... and then i have a really short and shallow love line, meaning im not gonna be that great with anyone in my life... (great...) and i've got really short and shallow branches stemming out of my love line meaning i've only had relationships that lasted months, or really short lived relationships~ and with the big bubble i have on my love line, it means i'll have or have had a traumatic relationship... what else... my life line... haha i told him not to tell me when im gonna die... hehehe... and then he felt my fingers and he said im not adaptive to change or i dont like change at all (totally true there i must say) and then he pulled my thumb and said im an efficient person... (now im not sure about that hahaha)... ooh and he felt how fat my hand, right hand by the way..., was and said im a sensitive person who's the type to take things to heart and stay up at night in bed just thinking of what happened during the day or something... wow... totally... but then again, im not supersticious (is that how you spell that?!?!?) but it's pretty interesting, yeh???

oh how cool, victor came over and he's using his laptop next to me... hahahaha yeh victor just said *ok* oh yeh and victor says *hi (with a wave) to everybody... i love you all* umm yes victor, whatever... HAHAHAHAHAHA...

oh yeh, what did i buy today? i got a loofah back scrub from the body shop and a tank from cotton on... YAY!! im gonna be clean and pretty hehe... *sigh* i need to stop spending money like that... ><""

there are so many people in the library omg, and heaps of people are fully studying... W... O... W... just checked my mail and posted something on my xanga, so you guys are free to visit it and read the funny emails or interesting emails i get from my friends...

OMGOMGOMGOMOGMOMGOMOGMOMGOMG... GUESS WHO JUST CAME?!!?!?!?!?!??! JOE!! YAY~!! oh and he said *hi* omg i sound like a nigel now great ><"" aaaanyways im gonna go talk to joe~ aiya but he wants to sleep ><"" lalalalalalalala

tata la!! yay im so happy! awww i miss joe~

JYKW

Ahh...

cant believe i've pulled through 1 whole week of uni already... and how do i feel? well, since all my classes are in the late arvo - early evening, the latest is FIN310, which ends at 9PM on mondays, i've been feeling really wasted by the time i get home... which in a way is a good thing because i've been going to bed earlier (yeh midnight is early) and waking up earlier, too! (O M G 9AM IS SOO DAYMN EARLY!!) i guess it's helping me change my body clock back to something that's more... normal? haha...

waking up early is good, as i've realised recently, because time seems to pass by slower during the AM hours, especially between 7AM and 11AM, and time tends to speed up after 11AM... so yeh, i recon if everyone woke up a bit earlier, and slowly, woke up before 9AM, they'd be able to get HEAPS MORE done before the sun sets... yeh? i shall lead by example... muahahaha

property law is hectic, gosh, UNI IS HECTIC... like, omg im a 3rd year now... far out, heaps of people are gonna grad. soon and i'll be stuck at uni (with jo and a few others) finishing our law degree... (assuming we all finish our 1st degree by the end of this year... omg touch wood for hinting the F word...) i wonder where i'll be in 5 year's time... i bet you i'll still live here with my parents (not that there's anything wrong with that... i quite like the whole idea of having a maid-slash-servant who's not making a living from the cleaning and cooking she does for me... hehe) wonder what job i'll have... omg im fully hoping that it'll be something good enough to satisfy my shopping needs... hahaha...

im feeling a bit *out of touch* with the whole society, kinda... i dont listen to the radio, i hardly watch tv, i dont even chat on the internet... omg what have i been doing!!?!?!?!? uni, work, ahh at least i get to meet up with my *spiritual* friends more often (omg did i just sound like a freak? or like a 3 year old with a WHOLE BUNCH of invisible friends?!?!) i guess staying in touch with my spiritual side keeps me balanced from all the, so to say, falsities of this physical world... (and no, my spiritual friends are actual people i see... ok, i better stop digging further down...)

piano is screwed because i literally dont have time to practice, and being a 7th grade, that's a pretty bad sign... i cant say i hate piano, but then i really do feel the candle's burning out... even though when i do get the random chance to sit down and play something, i feel kinda good but then... oh well, bottom line, im lacking motivation...

i didnt join anything new this year during O week, because i know how gay i can get and im like a typical chinese (or AZNs?) when it comes to being *active* with stuff like societies and stuff... i'd like to go to a cruise though, but then i dont drink and i'm starting to turn into an introvert (bad bad bad... *sigh*) so yeh...

im gay...

somehow i feel like there's not much time left... no time left in terms of what? i cant explain...

maybe i should just quit piano once and for all and just move on? but then it'll turn into something that's left unfinished in life and like when im 80 or something, i'd be like, omg i cant die yet, i havent even finished piano properly until 8th grade... *sigh*...

i've realised im really sensitive to what people say about me... be it to me or behind my back, aka gossip and rumours... and being the anti-social me (wow, how does that sound?) it seems to be turning into a vicious cycle ><""" i need to find out what's making me anti-social... argh!!

omg i dont even know the name of NSW's premier... i cant say his name... omg how gay... but then i know nicole kidman's engaged to that singer guy who (to me) looks like an aragorn-wannabe... ahh LOTR... i miss the faze...

far out i miss high school...

okok, enough depression, better snap out of this and move on... shower time!

yeh yeh, until next time

tata la~

JYKW

where's my mother?

im at uni right now... oh yeh go to my xanga to see what i've been doing up until now...

i think im starting to revert to my *pocrastinating mode* already and the first week of uni is about to end. yeh, at this rate, im not going to get anything done until the last minute ><"""

i was in my econ350 lecture just then and carol, jo and i all had this sudden craving for baked dinner... i wanted my boiled vegies and they all wanted lamb ><"" haha... i literally slept through the first hour of the lecture: far out! i was absolutely bored off my arse~ hahaha

so what happened? i got my pocky out of my bag and stuffed my self with pocky haha (yeh i shared with others, too. im slack but not THAT slack la!) and then i remembered i still had those pre-peeled chestnuts in my bag i got this morning with mum but they were all squashed: BUT STILL NICE~! haha someone once told me too much carbos will make you fart... is that true?? chestnuts are full of carbos, right? sooo, is that why...? (HAHAHAHA JKJKJK)

right now, the library is totally freezing and my fingers are feeling a bit numb, it's cool (note double meaning here) how they have this constant temperature thing going on throughout the WHOLE year...

so what am i doing here? waiting for mum, duh... and rather than reading the new law study guide i bought today, im blogging ><"" ooh, im watching the people around me, too... gosh there are so many people randomly using the computer like me... it's not like they're all doing work... which kinda helps because i was starting to feel bad for hogging this computer for so long...

some people are so funny to watch... their facial expressions and stuff... you can sooo tell when someone's doing work and someone's bumming/hogging the uni computers... this guy to my left is FULLY reading emails i recon, or reading something really funny because his face is sooo funny!! like fully O.O with a *hahahahahahaahaha* smile on his face. maybe he's chatting hmm i should download msn on this comp too, aye?

ok i am really cold now...

oh yeh, we were watching russell peters on my phone during the lecture... hmm what else did we do today in the lecture? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAA OH YEH~ carol and i were thinking how a bank teller would react if someone wanted to withdraw $5 million... carol asked if it would be in yen... hahahahaha... and i was saying how it would be even funnier if that person asked for the $5 mil. to be all in 5s... HAHAHAHAHAHAHA so it would be like:

*hi, i would like to withdraw five million dollars (not yen)... oh and may i have them all in fives please because i need to catch the bus home...*

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA

yeh we were bored... O.o

anyways

tata la!

JYKW

What my pinky says about me...

got this from my cousin in hk... it's about what my right pinky says about me from it's longest section and the shortest section... if that made any sense...

so here goes...

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指節頭最長，此人充滿吸引力，而且語言同表達能力極佳，觀察力亦強，不容易為人所騙。
(having the top section of your pinky as the longest segment, this person is very attractive/appealing, and is very skilled at expressing themselves with words. this person has strong observation skills and will not be easily cheated/conned by others) -- a VERY FOBBISH translation of what it means... i dont think this is very accurate...


中間指節最短，代表為人忠心耿耿，處事態度經常維持一致，立場不易改變，看似優點其實不然，壞在不知變通、冥頑不靈。
(having the middle section as the shortest means that this person is very loyal and would always abide by the one principle/attitude/mentality/mindset when dealing with matters. he/she will not easily change his/her viewpoint/perception/position. although this may seem like a good quality, it is not so. the downside of this is that he/she is not flexible/does not accommodate things under different circumstances)

SHOUT OUT: THANKS CHARLIE, IM JUST GONNA LEAVE THE LAST 4 CHARACTERS COZ I CANT BE BOTHERED... HAHA

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i am really not sure if it's acurate because so far, i recon the bad qualities are pretty spot on but the good qualities are pretty much... wrong?

today was kinda weird because i had like a bad accident, which led to something good, but then something bad happened afterwards, which then kinda led to nothing because i didnt really care about it...

i'll blog about what happened when i have more time la~... basically, i stuffed myself up, got to shop, nearly died, but im still here... HAHAHAHA... ahh, i feel kinda optimistic about it, because normally i'd be totally dwelling on how crap the day was... hehe!!!

SHOUT OUT: THANKS DEREK AND VICTOR FOR HELPING ME OUT TODAY!! I WOULD HAVE TOTALLY FREAKED OUT WITHOUT YOU TWO!! =)

baah... uni work is piling up and im totally not in the mood to do anything... *haiI*... the wind is like fully blowing the trees and stuff... makes me think of ネコバス from トトロ... haha yes i was just thinking about the same made-in-china anime dvd pack we have *nudge nudge wink wink*...

ok im tired, cant do anymore portfolio expected returns ><"""

cant i get 26 hours a day instead of 24??? *im not complaining~ still following my vow not to complain... as much... **nudge nudge wink wink** to my bros and sisters*

SHOUT OUT: SORRY FOR KEEPING YOU UP, ROSS... *maybe*... nah, i do mean im sorry... haha...


JYKW

ps. cant believe march is here already... summer's gawn, autumn is coming... I FEEL TOTALLY OLD NOW...

*~ARGH~*

i am literally fed up with trains and buses. today was perfectly fine until the END when i had to go home. we'll get to that later...

what happened today? hmm it was a pretty normal day of going out and about. was woken up by a friend at like friggin 9 something... rolled around in bed... talked to a friend on the phone... realised that today was the last day i can go out and shop before uni starts so i decided to go meet up with my french teacher (MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA yay french!)...

i literally woke up like a dag... bad hair day, bad skin day, pretty much bad everything day... black eye liner made it worse and my break outs are spaced out literally like bermuda triangle...

hmm, the trains were ok then... had yum cha in the city but the food was pretty much *errr* but it was still enjoyable because i had company... then...

went to hornsby by train (trains were still normal) and on the way *learnt* like 2 lines of french. maybe i do suck at french, hmm... i should stick to my asian languages... *maybe...* (i've noticed that my french teacher kinda says that a lot... yeh ross, u'r weird... maybe he picked it up from the japs?) we'll see how this goes...

got to hornsby and WOOOOOOOOAH i was planning to buy these shoes but then decided not to because the colour was like pink and white and orange... which wouldnt exactly fit in with ANY winter clothes... and then i remembered i wanted some new lip colour, namely, ORANGE.

there's nothing in relation to the colour ORANGE with ANY dior lip colour... oh yeh and i saw the new paul smith fragrance for women... was planning to get that but then i remembered my orange lipstick mission... ok so back to the make up section, clarins wasnt much help... so in the end i saw the YSL counter and found a few lip colours REMOTELY close to ORANGE... blah blah u know the drill: try and buy yeh?... and then i ended up buying 2 lip colours from YSL and the lady (ooh i know her name, it's pamela... but she sooooooooooo didnt look like a pam... more like a sarah...) gave me this free gift pack thing... the clutch bag is hot pink (defo NOT a colour i would choose for a clutch) and inside were loads of stuff: cleansers, exfoliators, a lip stick, foundation, and a small bottle of YSL cinema... how nice... ooh and the lady tried the foundation on me because i was like *ah huh what if the foundation doesnt match my skin tone?*... yeh so slack of me... the lady was pretty nice (like duh it's DJ here) and put the foundation and lip colour on me... ooh and the blush was sooo nice... i was beginning to enjoy my day fully, when she said *oh u have such nice skin! the foundation just glides on your face* and... well, basically i smiled back at her, but deep inside i was full of mixed feelings because there was NO WAY she could have missed my bermuda triangle... *sigh* superficial... marketing... strategies... but then, the lady was such a pretty eye candy, i thought i'd let her be... she should change her name to sarah though, suits her more...

anyways~~ visited denise afterwards and carly was there too... aww i miss my friends sooo much... everyone seems to be breaking up all of a sudden... but i seriously remember how everyone was pairing up when i got back with wai ho... and now? wow... there really is a trend. but in a way i am starting to realise and agree with my parents (after today, denise's parents too) that at this moment, going out and getting FULLY serious with someone is still a bit early... muahaha so i still have say 7-8 years to fantasise about my perfect married-with-children-life... yay!!

guys are immature. full stop. end of paragraph. end of story.
guys are all the same. full stop. end of paragraph. end of story.

well, i do hope that my friends will be able to find true happiness from their *perfect* partner. i mean, all women were borned to be pampered and no woman shall cry over the faults of a guy. full stop. end of paragraph. end of story.

after chatting with denise and carly, i kinda felt as if im starting to think literally like a 28 year old woman. it seems that a lot of people are still living within a fantasised-oh-so-perfect world and they are all optimistic about how perfect and wonderful the guy they are with is. back to reality, i honestly believe that there is no perfect guy: there is only one guy who is willing to satisfactorily compromise with you. i dunno... i feel that every chic should meet more guys out there and observe different characteristics and then choose. there's no need to rush into any relationship. literally.

if it's your's to keep, it's your's to keep. if it's not, then no matter how hard you try, you wont be able to get it.

moving onto the most piss-i-est thing that happened today. i was for once, scared of staying out in the dark. what happened was, i missed the 634PM train from hornsby to epping (coz i wanted to bus it home from epping station) so the next train was at 650PM... ok fine... and so i waited and when i finally got onto the train and got off at epping, stupid westbus' timetable said i had just missed my bus by 8 minutes AND THE NEXT BUS WAS DUE IN 1 HOUR... i was like *o...k... i'll stay calm*... i decided to train it BACK to seven hills, since it's closer to home anyway, but i didnt realise until i walked into the gate that the next train to strathfield was due in 30 minutes. literally, i felt really cold and the sky was turning dark... one of my mobile was drained from its battery juices and the other one was full flashing because its battery was running out fast too... *haii*... so i started to pray coz i had nothing better to do, just to get my mind of things and let time pass... the train came at 655PM... blah blah, got to strathfield, LITERALLY RAN to the opposite side of the platform because THANK GOD MY TRAIN TO SEVEN HILLS was right there and then... wow... my prayers were answered... *thank you*...

i felt really insecure because i had no phones with me... i had used my money on public phones and the UNNECESSARY TRANSPORTATION EXPENSES... argh!!

the train to seven hills was kinda uncomfortable... the people on it with me were really weird... oh well, i got back to seven hills at like 7something-ish and by the time i got home home, it was 8 something... i was finally HUNGRY after losing my appetite for the last 2 weeks or so... yay!!

so there you go... my public transport dilemma... i really hate trains now, and it's not funny... i wasted over 2 hours freaking out inside my head coz i wanted to get home before 7 ><"""" mobile phones make things worse when they run out batts... argh!!! stupid gay technology...

overall, today was ok... i woke up like a dag, and got home like a freak...

at least the stuff in between was good... right?

im recharging my phones now... *ahhh...* and im gonna sleep on the stuff that has happened today...

moral of the story: PUBLIC TRANSPORT SUCKS... DO NOT GO OUT WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE A DAG... coz everything just falls apart...

JYKW

Great...

i just did a test to see how old i really am...

http://life.21cn.com/horoscope/ceshi/jianding.html

it's in simplified chinese though... got it off celine's msn space... haha thanks celine~

here's my result

你的精神年龄28岁 (my mental age is 28 years old)
与你实际年龄差8岁 (there is an 8 years difference between my mental age and my actual age)
幼稚度52％ (level of immaturity 52%)
成熟度75％ (level of maturity 72%)
老化度17％ (level of aging 17%)

hmm... how can i be 52% immature when im 72% mature? shouldnt they be in proportion?

oh well... at least i know i think like an old hag...

great...

woah busy busy busy

heaps of stuff has happened lately and i havent been on the net AS often... hmm where to start?

this year is a good year to get married and heaps of people are getting married... the last thing i want to do right now is to go through the whole going-out process because from the past, it just drains me out ><""" but i do recon one day, the love of my life will come when i least expect him to and it'll be nothing THAT full on... like none of those *o m g i love him soo much* stuff... the best relationships are those that arent extreme... well, i recon anyway...

how can i sum up my life lately?

- feeling heaps old ><""'
- running outta cash
- social life deprived

im losing my appetite... i dont know why... *sigh*

my korean's dying down... but i still love rain... he's my boyfriend... YEH I WISH!!!

oh yeh, i'v found a french teacher... HAHAHAHAHA... YAY!!! im gonna look soooo cool when i speak french... seriously, any guy who speaks french is hot... *fans self* my husband's gonna be able to speak french and who cares if i dont know what he's on about... even if he's all pissed and angry, he'll still look hot coz he'll be screaming french at me and french is sooooooo hot...

well, yeh that's all i can be bothered to put up right now... heaps has happened and yeh cant be bothered to type them all up... hahahahaha

JYKW

About Me... omg im THAT bored haha

found this on someone's msn space... copied and did it coz im bored right now hahaha...

hope it's interesting to you guys and it's not too long to go through hahahaha...

JYKW

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About Me
Your name: Jessica
Age: 20
Height: I have literally no idea these days because im scared of getting depression from it
Natural hair colour: black
Eye colour: dark, dark brown
Number of siblings: 1 lil bro~
Glasses/contacts?: yes… and I want coloured contacts!! But im scared… yeh im scared of everything hahaha
Tattoos: nah I don’t because im scared of pain… haha but if I can get over that, I want one where my tailbone is, one on the side of the right shoulder (maybe left) and one on the back of my hand, yeh that *V* area between my thumb and forefinger, yeh?
Piercings : no because of yeh the pain… im scared of infections too… if I can get over that phobia, then I’d get piercings all around my ears… YAY!
Braces: used to… in year 7 hahaha

Favourite
Movie: My Fair Lady
Colour: yellow, red… depending on other things, pink and white…
Band: none right now…
Song: rain’s songs, omg his voice is so hot
TV show: omg I haven’t watched tv for ages coz of summer school… and now I watch *loser* hahaha
Book: MEMOIRS OF A GEISHA
Food: anything without meat?
Game on a mobile phone: solitaire haahahahaahah
Flower: no, no more flowers for me please ><””” Website: other people’s blogs haha

Other Stuff
Best Memory: what memory?
Worst Dream: I’ve had heaps of nightmares la haha
2 people you cant live without: mum and dad omg and my brother
Perfect Guy would: be perfect to me

Do You?
Play an instrument?: im a crap pianist
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week: no haha
Like to sing? YES
Have a job?: YES… NO MORE FLOWERS PLEASE
Have a mobile phone?: yeh I have 2… haha
Like to play sports?: I like to watch sports
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: *haii…* no im single
Have a crush on someone?: too old for crushes
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?: nope… I wish haha
Have any special talents/skills?: I have nooooo idea…I screw up a lot in life haha so im not really sure
Excercise daily?: does sleeping and bumming burn calories?
Like school?: I liked it coz of lunch and recess and I could see my friends

Can Ya?
Sing the alphabet backwards?: yes… is that something I should be proud of?
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?: my toes are too short and stubby… hmm logically that should work yeh?
Speak any other languages?: ok English, canto, mando… I WISH I spoke Korean, Japanese, French and… that’s abt it haha
Go a day without food?: yes, been there done that
Stay up for more than 24 hours?: yep, been there done that too often with law finals and assignments haha
Read music?: im sure I have learnt SOMETHING after all those years of piano haha
Roll your tongue?: yep~ and no, I don’t think I am a good kisser… better ask my ex-bf abt that haha
Eat a whole pizza?: nope…

Ever....
Snuck out of the house?: hmm nope, why would I when I can just walk out?
Cried to get out of trouble?: like always haah
Gotten lost in your city?: YES HAHAHAHAAHAHAH
Seen a shooting star?: nope… how abt in movies?
Had a serious surgery?: yeh~~
Stolen something important to someone else?: hahahaha better keep that to myself…
Solved a rubiks cube?: nope, I get pissed off all the time haahah
Gone out in public in your pajamas?: yep, all the time haha
Cried over a girl?: yes haha not in the love way but out of piss-i-ness… haha yeh im jealous of others haha
Cried over a boy?: yes *haii* been there done that
Kissed a random stranger?: no! eiw!
Hugged a random stranger?: yeh did that today haha
Been in a fist fight?: hmm I’v pushed a lot of people I know that hahahaaha
Been arrested?: no
Had alcohol?: huh? Yes yes yes
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?: did it with coke instead
Swore at your parents?: yes… like im kinda ashamed to admit but yeh I have
Kicked a guy where it hurts?: not kick…
Broken a bone?: nah
Made homemade muffins?: yeh haaha
Been to disneyland/disneyworld?: yep~! I wanna go to hk Disney!!
Burped in someones face?: YEP
Gotten the chicken pox?: YEP!! Guess where my chicken pox scar is!.

Which One?
Fruit/vegetables: both
Black/white: white coz it’s in right now
Lights on/lights off: on please
TV/movie: tv
Car/truck: car
Body spray/lotion: lotion
Cash/check: cash
Pillows/blankets: both
Headache/stomach ache: none?
Paint/charcoal: paint
Chinese food/mexican food: chinese
Summer/winter: WINTER coz the clothes are nicer then
Snow/rain: RAIN COZ I LOVE HIM… HAHAHAAHAHAHHH… but still, rain over snow
Fog/misty: none
Rock/rap: rock la
meat/vegetarian: im a vego yeh?
Boy/girl: I check chics out more often than I check guys out…
Chocolate/vanilla: choco!
Sprinkles/icing: 100s and 1000s!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Cake/pie: cakes
French toast/french fries: French toast
Strawberries/blueberries: both coz blueberries make u pettier
Ocean/swimming pool: I cant swim
Hugs/kisses: hugging and kissing at the same time… haha
cookies/muffins: none coz I used to work at muffin break omg…
Wallet/pocket: wallet
Pink/purple: omg… umm… depends…
Cat/dog: DOG!! I LOVE ALEX HE’S SOOO DAYMN CUTE
Clouds/clear sky: clear blue sky

Friendship
How many friends do you have?: who would go around counting??
Do you have a best friend?: *haii* nah not really, there are people I can talk to when I need someone… but depending on the situation, I talk to different people… that’s where a bf would come in handy coz then I can tell them everything hahaha
Have you ever liked one of your friends?: umm don’t people start off as friends before they go out???? So, logically, everyone ends up liking their friend, RIGHT??
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?: more chics I recon but then again, it’s kinda balanced… I don’t know… like I said, who’d go around counting?
Do you miss any of your old friends?: yeh I soo do~
What friend have you known the longest?: heaaaaaaaaaps so I cant list them haha
Do you regret anything youve done to a friend?: yeh heaps of stuff la
How often do you spend time with your friends?: everyday hahahaha the phone!! Is that considered spending time with friends?
Whats the dumbest thing youve done with a friend?: omg we’ve done heaps of stupid things
What do you think your friends think of you?: prolly a loud mouth who gossips?

Love
Have you ever been in love?: yeh haha
If you have, with who?: omg can I not answer this? *yes*
Are you single?: atm, yes
Do you believe there is someone for everyone: yes

Last Time You?
Brushed your teeth: this morning hahahaha
Went to the bathroom: just then in the shower… SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Saw a movie in theaters: last year literally
Read a book: the whole book? Geisha lor
Had a snow day: in year 6 when we went to the snowy mountains haha
Had a party: don’t have parties often at my place… more like meet ups
Had a slumber party: I’v been to ones but haven’t held one
Made fun of someone: TODAY ahahahahaha
Tripped in front of someone: umm today at work… nearly stacked it coz of the mess
Went to the food store: like duh, had to buy lunch today didn’t i?
Got sick: fully sick or what?
Cursed: hmmmmm duno

Word Association
Slippers: clean feet
Hat: hat hair
Free: more money
Space: stars
Taste: savoury
Red: Chinese stuff
Rain: omg arms I’d melt just looking at… hot body omg everything… dancing omg
Bed: omg no you don’t want to know what I had just thought of hahaha
Race: indians
Knife: forks

I...
want: money
need: time
crave: for love
love: someone…
hate: the stupid things I’v done in life
feel: tired
am annoyed by: heaps of things hahaha
will always: do things at the last minute

Other Silly Questions!
What is your favourite genre of music?: pop haha right now, it’s kpop aha
What time is it now?: 1217AM
What day is it?: wednesday
Whens the last time you called someone?: this evening at like 7pm
How much money do you have right now?: no idea
Do you like the moon?: why would I like the moon? I like someone’s *moon* hahahaah (for those hkies reading this… August 15th?)
What are you going to do when youre done with this?: check up on my infected finger
If you could have any magical power what would it be?: turn back time
Have you ever had a picnic?: yeh
Are you wearing any socks right now?: no

Do You Think You Are:
funny?: in a weird way, yeh?
pretty?: sometimes… ahahaahahahah most of time actually haha
sarcastic?: yeh… caught that of my frineds
lazy?: pfft like duh
hyper?: like what? Like on a high? I don’t think so, but ppls say I am
friendly?: not if im feeling bitchy haha
evil?: yeh im evil, like an evil person would soo say that ahahaha yeh im the first one to
smart?: more like lucky at times
strong?: YEH CHECK OUT MY BICEPS!
talented?: have we answered this or something along this line already?

Would U Ever?
Sky dive?: no
Run away?: yes
Curse at a teacher?: been there done that
Not take a shower for a week?: how about a bath?
Ask someone out?: yes
Lie to someone to make them think better of you?: haha yes
Visit a foreign country for more than a month?: yes
Go scuba diving?: no I cant swim
Write a book?: yeh
Become a rockstar?: YES TOTALLY

Last Borin Questions
Ever almost died?: nope
What shampoo do you use?: pantene
What kind of computer do you have?: umm no idea who cares, I can go on the net, listen to music, do my work on it, im fine
What year are you in?: 3rd year this year man ><””
Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?: used to… but now I don’t eat in the movies
Or just make out?: nah why pay money to make out? Gosh, there’s always the car…
How many posters do you have in your room: like heaps… everywhere hahahaahahaha umm let me see, 15 hahaaha
What time is it now? 1214AM

Free at last

yay! im free at last!! summer school's done~ and now? i've been working everyday since friday and today is valentine's day eve... omg it was crazy at work today but hey it was pretty fun because i got to bring a friend of mine to work just to help out~~

THANKS GENI!!

and yay~! im going out this wednesday to towers with mum hehe~~ and then friday will be another day out for me~~ this week is gonna be awesome!!

and then i got this off liyen's xanga so i hope this really is what i am!! hahahaha...

JYKW

You Are Girly Sexy

You're a youthful spirit, and your energy is infectious. Men love your innocence and lack of emotional baggage. You make every kiss seem like the first and every moment magical. How could any guy in his right mind resist that?

What Kind of Sexy Are You?

stretched over 3 days blog

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544PM
found the damier canvas LV bag I like on pisa… feeling a bit deprived right now… and distracted
the stupid bag costs AUD1030… *sigh* feeling very deprived
but I aint gonna do anything about it…
better get back to my so called *studying*

oh yeh, froozie is so funny hahahahahahahaha

625PM
Saw flashing msn msges…
Chatted for a while… decided to post my uni timetable up so I can answer everyone’s questions at once…
Planning to get waxing done next week…
I want to straighten my hair daymnit!!! Hope my hair’s long enough when I have the time to…

641PM
pam just told me she emptied her recycle bin and now she cant recover her files from her computer… poor pam…

ok shower time

080206
1158PM
Summer school sucks because im bored crapless trying to study
It’s not funny. The last time I felt this way was the 2 weeks before my HSC when I tried to cram all the HSC materials into my head… im always thinking of what’s going to happen AFTER my finals tomoro…

Sang k every time I scabbed time for a break… watched 3 concerts but I did FF the boring bits (LIKE THE SONGS I DON’T LIKE hahaahahahahaha)

SHOUT OUT: THANKS ROSS FOR UR 8 SOMETHING AM SMS, DEFINITELY THE FIRST ONE!! THANKS DIXON BROTHER~ THANKS DEREK (I will call u when I remember la~)~~ THANKS WAI HO~ KAREN AND JENNY AND LILY AND AH DUC AND OMG MY LECTURER (?? As if he’ll read this, but still…) O M G SUPPORT!!! WHOO HOO!!!

Nearly done!! Nearly there!! Yay!!!

AZA AZA FIGHTING!!!

JYKW

ps. thanks to those who asked how i was. im fine now after all the stuff that happened over the last months~~ i feel heaps better now, especially when i know there are ppls out there like you guys and yeh, my parents have been really nice too~~ LOVE YA'LL !!

SEMESTER 1 AND SEMESTER 2 TIMETABLES

HERE IS MY SEMESTER 1 TIMETABLE

it sucks yes, all in the arvos... cant help it... class clashes, so it's all spread out over 4 friggin stupid uni days...

HERE IS MY SEMESTER 2 TIMETABLE

much better... *ahhhh*... all done in 3 days... hardly any tuts... but then stupid fridays... my week's gonna be soo weird ><"""" at least i can work on thursdays then!! WHOO HOO!! MONEY!!!

i hope that answered your questions!!


JYKW

Today...

got my test results back... barely made a D... what a great boarderline student i am... *sigh*... wonder how i'll go in my finals?

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feeling a bit used today. last night, i was feeling a bit better from the backstabbing incidences to be able to rant on about it in a blog entry. right now?? i feel absolutely used. ><"""

~~

so much for all the things you have said. so much for all the things you said you would do for me. really, there is honestly no such thing as 天長地久. everything is 曾經擁有. yes, block me, ignore me, 敷衍 me... everything is just a 應酬, is that right?

guess what? if that's what you want, that's what you'll get. dont come around to ask me for help or favours again, because im not going to help you anymore. i really dont care about this. i was told to go for the things i want in life, i tried and it's not my fault if u turn around in the future and realise u've made the biggest mistake in your life.

go tell your mum and sister and all those aunties what you have done. i know i've been stupid enough but let's just see how people perceive you then aye?

i dont know what you want and i dont intend on finding out either, now. i wanted to know before because you were basically cold then hot then cold then hot. what's with the smses and phone calls and chats? what's with the sudden ignoring and sudden *im busy* attitude?

i hope you have a good life.

JYKW

Well...

i've been the victim of a few backstabbing incidents lately. it doesnt feel great in the first place, and when those who you thought were close enough to you takes a step back and lets you stand there alone, it does make it worse than it should feel.

i really want to know how it really is out there in the commerical world. life as itself is already full of backstabbing, then what's going to happen when i enter the actual workforce?

another thing that has happened over the week is that i've had people telling how they so *didnt know jess can be sad, down, depressed and anti social*... i guess it's a good thing how people see me as a happy person and how i help make the atmosphere happier. but looking deeper, it is really hard to find someone who you can totally trust and release your true feelings to. i know parents just want to help, but when the people i try to confide to tell everything to their parents, an unnecessary amount of adults end up knowing. then things just spread and comes back to my parents. they feel as if i have so many things kept away from them, but to be honest, the people spreading rumours and gossip are really creative. arent they, aye??

people come to me for gossip, but they dont realise that i dont have any gossip. i really dont. then how can someone who didnt know anything be the one who spreads the gossip? if your parents talk about you to other parents, dont come to me and act as if im the one to blame for rumours because you should tell your parents not to talk to the wrong people in the first place.

get me?

心亂如麻

歌手：Janice 作曲：雷頌德　
填詞：林夕 編曲：雷頌德

因初吻著你想慶賀　你卻開始疏遠我
假使你是覺得怯懦　你會不會拒絕我
你有意欲去找我　你會通電再會過

如實在認真喜歡我　或是有心敷衍我
如今只有三歲都清楚

是你不想我啦　甚至不找我啦　
無非幾天變化　就像刮我幾千巴　
難道你共我親吻抱擁之後竟有偏差　
不想和我好　請求直說真話

很想你是愛得懶惰　至會多天不理我
心境正逐秒鐘跌墮　我哪一樣有做錯

過去你極愛惜我　快慰之後侮辱我
曾自問自私開心過　自問自卑擔心過
如今的我只要知清楚

沒有膽色纏你　心亂如麻
回去吧　回去吧　來讓我傷口結疤

是你不想我嗎　是你不找我嗎
無非幾天變化　就像刮我幾千巴
難道你共我親吻抱擁之後竟有偏差
不想和我好　不如直說真話

Lists...

got this off froozie's blog...

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9 "lasts"
last cigarette: smoking sucks
last beverage: tea
last movie seen: some hkie comedy
last phone call: bryant
last cd played: havent listened to cds for ages!! i think it was a faye wong cd
last bubble bath: aaaaages ago when i was a baby hahahahahaha not that i remember...
last time you cried: saturday night

8 "have you evers"
have you ever dated one of your best friends: yeh, best thing was to stay as friends
have you ever skinny dipped: noooooooooo... eiw~ haha i cant swim anyway...
have you ever kissed somebody and regretted it: yes... hahaha, not at the time though, but like 2 minutes afterwards...
have you ever fallen in love: yes... too deep ><""
have you ever lost someone you loved: as in relatives or as in breaking up?? either way, yes... baah~
have you ever been depressed: as a psychological disorder, no... but i've been REALLY down before...
have you ever been drunk and thrown up: no way!

7 states you've been to
1. NSW
2. VIC
3. HK (is that a state?)
4. HONSHU, JAPAN (is that a state?)
5. TAIPEI (whichever state that's in)
6. TAICH'UNG (ditto)
7. GAOH'SIONG (ditto that hahaha)

6 things you've done today
1. read lecture notes for tomorrow
2. watching vcds
3. checked out photos people put up on the net
4. read a chapter of some Chinese classic
5. slept in the arvo
6. tried to study for my test tomorrow

5 favorite things in no order.
1. food
2. my bed
3. my music
4. the people i love
5. myself (???)

3 wishes
1. to pass all my subjects and graduate on time
2. to travel around the world
3. to be a better person

2 things you want to do before you die
1. help my friends and family find spiritual peace
2. get married and have children

1 thing you regret
1. not learning how to let go when i have to

today...
1. what are you doing now: filling this out when im supposed to be studying
2. what are you wearing: tank and shorts... basically my pjs...
3. what did you eat for lunch: noodles from 2 days ago and soup from last night
4. better than yesterday?: cant compare...

tomorrow...
1. sleeping till: dunno, i might not even sleep depending on how i go with my studying ><""
2. got any plans?: call the people i was meant to call this week, start reading some more Chinese classics... haha...
3. dislikes about tomorrow: the test im having in the morning

favourite...
1. number: 1
2. song: too many... haha
3. colour: yellow... red... depending on my mood for the day i guess...
4. season: winter