so things are going good for the past couple of days. seems like once a person accept things, the whole situation turns around and becomes good.
new lunar year, so i guess it's a new start... again hahaha
man there are a few ants running around on my desk... cant find the trail ><""
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Saturday, January 28, 2006
我想通了
好了... 過了一個晚上, 睡了8個小時, 從上班到下班, 我終於想通了.
我不會強迫你, 也不會怪你. 你要怎樣選擇, 我也會支持的. 我們經歷過那嘛多年了, 難道自己喜歡啥嘛都不曉得嗎? 我知道我有多喜歡你: 跟你在網路上聊天, 跟你講電話, 我都會覺得我們曾經擁有過的感情是滿幸福的一段路.
就算我們之間真的出現了誤會, 以後會怎樣就讓我們的命運帶著我們走吧. 我知道這是業力, 所以我會好好的做好自己的本分. 反正, 如果我們有那種緣分, 我們怎嘛躲也躲不起來的.
其實是我對不起你, 我也不值得你喜歡. 聽到你的語氣, 我早就知道你是在應酬我. Sorry. 我又再打擾你了. 我以後都不會的了.
我也想跟另外一個人說對不起. 我沒有利用你, 也沒有騙過你. 那時候, 我們的感情是真的. 可是, 我們的性格和志向真的有差別. 我不想傷害你, 只是如果我們一起再走長遠一點, 我們一定會有摩擦. 我不是你所想像的那麼完美. 我還是會像以前那麼關心你的.
我不會強迫你, 也不會怪你. 你要怎樣選擇, 我也會支持的. 我們經歷過那嘛多年了, 難道自己喜歡啥嘛都不曉得嗎? 我知道我有多喜歡你: 跟你在網路上聊天, 跟你講電話, 我都會覺得我們曾經擁有過的感情是滿幸福的一段路.
就算我們之間真的出現了誤會, 以後會怎樣就讓我們的命運帶著我們走吧. 我知道這是業力, 所以我會好好的做好自己的本分. 反正, 如果我們有那種緣分, 我們怎嘛躲也躲不起來的.
其實是我對不起你, 我也不值得你喜歡. 聽到你的語氣, 我早就知道你是在應酬我. Sorry. 我又再打擾你了. 我以後都不會的了.
我也想跟另外一個人說對不起. 我沒有利用你, 也沒有騙過你. 那時候, 我們的感情是真的. 可是, 我們的性格和志向真的有差別. 我不想傷害你, 只是如果我們一起再走長遠一點, 我們一定會有摩擦. 我不是你所想像的那麼完美. 我還是會像以前那麼關心你的.
Friday, January 27, 2006
怎麼辦呢 ?
新年快到了, 我有幾件事情想快一點解決... 其中最重要的, 其實我也不知道怎麼說出口.
都那嘛多年了, 雖然我們沒有真正的相處過, 可是為啥嘛我們之間會有那嘛多事情發生呢? 再說, 我們其實可以說沒有 really 開始過. 那如果我們沒有開始過, 我們又怎嘛會有 ending 呢? 別跟我說是我先說要分手, 因為你那時候也想分開.
我想知道, 現在我們真的只是朋友嗎? 你要我等你, ok, 我等你. 那麼多年了, 我們之間好像發生了好多事情, 那你現在要我把你當作朋友? ok, 是我先說要分手的, 可是你可以說你不喜歡我了嗎? 我只是知道, 我還是很喜歡你.
我們都有聽到很多是非, 那你有相信它們嗎? 我們之間缺了溝通. 有人跟我說, * 知道自己喜歡的, 就要去爭取 *. 那我想跟你溝通, 我有很多想跟你說的. 你想聽嗎? 我們說要分手的時候, 那個氣氛也滿不好的呢. 我們兩個都很生氣: 我覺得你騙了我, 然後你好像覺得我騙了你的感情.
我想說對不起. 我想爭取跟你一起溝通的機會, 可以嗎? 你想怎樣就跟我說嘛. 別亂猜嘛... 我說過我不要我們這樣拖拖拉拉的. 那現在就講清楚嘛...
好嗎?
都那嘛多年了, 雖然我們沒有真正的相處過, 可是為啥嘛我們之間會有那嘛多事情發生呢? 再說, 我們其實可以說沒有 really 開始過. 那如果我們沒有開始過, 我們又怎嘛會有 ending 呢? 別跟我說是我先說要分手, 因為你那時候也想分開.
我想知道, 現在我們真的只是朋友嗎? 你要我等你, ok, 我等你. 那麼多年了, 我們之間好像發生了好多事情, 那你現在要我把你當作朋友? ok, 是我先說要分手的, 可是你可以說你不喜歡我了嗎? 我只是知道, 我還是很喜歡你.
我們都有聽到很多是非, 那你有相信它們嗎? 我們之間缺了溝通. 有人跟我說, * 知道自己喜歡的, 就要去爭取 *. 那我想跟你溝通, 我有很多想跟你說的. 你想聽嗎? 我們說要分手的時候, 那個氣氛也滿不好的呢. 我們兩個都很生氣: 我覺得你騙了我, 然後你好像覺得我騙了你的感情.
我想說對不起. 我想爭取跟你一起溝通的機會, 可以嗎? 你想怎樣就跟我說嘛. 別亂猜嘛... 我說過我不要我們這樣拖拖拉拉的. 那現在就講清楚嘛...
好嗎?
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
*sigh*...
It's been quite weird these few days... i havent been on the net, havent touched my computer... literally just relaxing and chilling at home.
i think a lot of things will die down and pass over as time passes, but then again, everything that happens in our lives will always leave seeds and trails behind. i know that there are things that i am willing to just let them pass over because i really have gotten over. but one thing i have realised is that the longer you leave something dragging, the deeper the trail and the deeper the roots will be planted in your mind. that, to me, is something i reckon is really dangerous because they are the things that make us worry and annoyed and confused in life.
there's one thing that basically have been dragging with me for the past YEARS of my life. i can't say there was no beginning but then i cant say nothing has happened in between. there cant be an official end because there wasnt an official beginning. things just happened over the years, things developed, things died down... now what???
someone told me to chase after the things i want in life but then, i dont even know if i want to or not... things just dont come when i ask for them to come. i guess that's a good thing. the message i am getting these days from the things that have happened to those around me, have shown me that there are more important things in life than what i used to chase after.
*sigh* the biggest hurdle with this is that there was literally no communication at all between both parties. and now, both parties are making decisions based on what other people have said. i find that really sad and the sadest thing is that i dont know how to break the ice... like for once im stuck for words. i guess this is really one thing where my heart has been for the past X amount of years. it's easy to break the ice and let go of something that has only been around for a short period of time and it's a lot easier if both parties still talk and maintain a mutual relationship as friends. but when both parties are avoiding the talk about things. *sigh*...
it's like there are things that i have packed away into a box inside my heart but then there are things that are still lit and every now and then, i'll notice the light's still burning inside... i cant just leave it, but then what else can i do???
~~
anyways, other than that, life's ok... summer school sucks... just scraped a Cr. for my *mid-sem*. i was totally lost today when the lecturer was talking about insurance... TOTALLY LOST... think i need consultation AGAIN...
~~
had lunch with 阿德 and we started to talk about random things. it's really nice to know that people can have lunch and be friends with you without other motives. i feel so much more secure.
the friends i have met recently are starting to become really cool friends. we've been shopping and talking about random things, which really helps when loneliness sets in...
~~
anyways man, enough for today. better reply my msn msgs now... hahaha
JYKW
i think a lot of things will die down and pass over as time passes, but then again, everything that happens in our lives will always leave seeds and trails behind. i know that there are things that i am willing to just let them pass over because i really have gotten over. but one thing i have realised is that the longer you leave something dragging, the deeper the trail and the deeper the roots will be planted in your mind. that, to me, is something i reckon is really dangerous because they are the things that make us worry and annoyed and confused in life.
there's one thing that basically have been dragging with me for the past YEARS of my life. i can't say there was no beginning but then i cant say nothing has happened in between. there cant be an official end because there wasnt an official beginning. things just happened over the years, things developed, things died down... now what???
someone told me to chase after the things i want in life but then, i dont even know if i want to or not... things just dont come when i ask for them to come. i guess that's a good thing. the message i am getting these days from the things that have happened to those around me, have shown me that there are more important things in life than what i used to chase after.
*sigh* the biggest hurdle with this is that there was literally no communication at all between both parties. and now, both parties are making decisions based on what other people have said. i find that really sad and the sadest thing is that i dont know how to break the ice... like for once im stuck for words. i guess this is really one thing where my heart has been for the past X amount of years. it's easy to break the ice and let go of something that has only been around for a short period of time and it's a lot easier if both parties still talk and maintain a mutual relationship as friends. but when both parties are avoiding the talk about things. *sigh*...
it's like there are things that i have packed away into a box inside my heart but then there are things that are still lit and every now and then, i'll notice the light's still burning inside... i cant just leave it, but then what else can i do???
~~
anyways, other than that, life's ok... summer school sucks... just scraped a Cr. for my *mid-sem*. i was totally lost today when the lecturer was talking about insurance... TOTALLY LOST... think i need consultation AGAIN...
~~
had lunch with 阿德 and we started to talk about random things. it's really nice to know that people can have lunch and be friends with you without other motives. i feel so much more secure.
the friends i have met recently are starting to become really cool friends. we've been shopping and talking about random things, which really helps when loneliness sets in...
~~
anyways man, enough for today. better reply my msn msgs now... hahaha
JYKW
Friday, January 20, 2006
Uni...
im at uni... ppls are studying right now and im taking a break... how boring...
just did a test... screwed it totally... think i'll get 58% max... *haii*...
hungry but i dont want to eat... gosh, who'd wanna eat after a test like that ><""" but oh well, at least im hot today... HAHAHAHAHAHA
met 2 new ppls in my class... pretty nice ppls hehe... they both have really nice hair, good thing i tied mine up today (so no one can see how yukky my hair is whoo hoo!!)
(v*^.^*v)
anyways... wonder what everyone else is doing in the library... hmm... >< ??
JYKW
just did a test... screwed it totally... think i'll get 58% max... *haii*...
hungry but i dont want to eat... gosh, who'd wanna eat after a test like that ><""" but oh well, at least im hot today... HAHAHAHAHAHA
met 2 new ppls in my class... pretty nice ppls hehe... they both have really nice hair, good thing i tied mine up today (so no one can see how yukky my hair is whoo hoo!!)
(v*^.^*v)
anyways... wonder what everyone else is doing in the library... hmm... >< ??
JYKW
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
New Shoes
yes i am addicted to pointy shoes...
i got a new pair today... they'r yellow and pointy and the heels arent that high either!! and guess how much they were?!! $15 AT CASTLE TOWERS !!!
WHAT A FRIGGIN BARGAIN!! had to spend money in that shop seriously... omg any woman would want to live there hahahhahaahah!!
check them out at my MSN SPACE PHOTOS !!! (under New Shoes)...
i've put up more pictures in my MSN SPACE so feel free to check them out, too...
feeling really tired now for some reason... i recon its hormonal hahhahaahaha
jkjk...
have fun and take care!
JYKW
i got a new pair today... they'r yellow and pointy and the heels arent that high either!! and guess how much they were?!! $15 AT CASTLE TOWERS !!!
WHAT A FRIGGIN BARGAIN!! had to spend money in that shop seriously... omg any woman would want to live there hahahhahaahah!!
check them out at my MSN SPACE PHOTOS !!! (under New Shoes)...
i've put up more pictures in my MSN SPACE so feel free to check them out, too...
feeling really tired now for some reason... i recon its hormonal hahhahaahaha
jkjk...
have fun and take care!
JYKW
Shopping... Retail Therapy... Demand Supplied...
so what did i do today?
had uni, and one thing i have realised (again) is that asians tend to warm slower to people as compared to other western cultures. i think i am used to the 鬼佬 way of meeting people that most (if not all) asians think i am really open and confident. i really dont see anything embarrassing in helping someone pick up things they have dropped or saying a hi to someone who smiles at you. (hmm...) well, today, the asians in my class have finally felt more at ease when i start conversations, like they actually do try to sustain the conversations and answer my questions. the class actually feels a lot warmer than last week's...
during my lunch break, i bought a bottle of burberry touch for women because it came with a free make up bag. IT'S PINK TOO!! whoo hoo!! with pouches and a zip pocket!! my ai-yah-sister told me not to get it last night but then i just couldnt help it ><"... the packaging is soo good!! the bottle was in a cotton pouch and that was in a really nice box with those strings u tied around these 2 circle things... i really cant decribe it but it's like a mail parcel... hmm... it's just really nice... the scent and all... even better coz it was wrapped nicely AND had a free make up bag. now all my make up's properly kept! (and yes, i finally remembered the fragrance's scent)
i tried to visist my friend at work but she was on her lunch break and when i went back to visit her after uni finished, she had just left for the day... if only i didnt hang around in the library ><""""
vivien's left for hk this arvo... i wish i could go to hk and shop with the other half of the world... *sobs*
what's with people and freaky emails??? gosh!!
anyhow~ i've had my rest for today...
SHOUT OUT TO ALICE COZ I CANT MAKE IT ON SATURDAY NIGHT!!! LOVE YOU HEAPS!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
love,
JYKW
had uni, and one thing i have realised (again) is that asians tend to warm slower to people as compared to other western cultures. i think i am used to the 鬼佬 way of meeting people that most (if not all) asians think i am really open and confident. i really dont see anything embarrassing in helping someone pick up things they have dropped or saying a hi to someone who smiles at you. (hmm...) well, today, the asians in my class have finally felt more at ease when i start conversations, like they actually do try to sustain the conversations and answer my questions. the class actually feels a lot warmer than last week's...
during my lunch break, i bought a bottle of burberry touch for women because it came with a free make up bag. IT'S PINK TOO!! whoo hoo!! with pouches and a zip pocket!! my ai-yah-sister told me not to get it last night but then i just couldnt help it ><"... the packaging is soo good!! the bottle was in a cotton pouch and that was in a really nice box with those strings u tied around these 2 circle things... i really cant decribe it but it's like a mail parcel... hmm... it's just really nice... the scent and all... even better coz it was wrapped nicely AND had a free make up bag. now all my make up's properly kept! (and yes, i finally remembered the fragrance's scent)
i tried to visist my friend at work but she was on her lunch break and when i went back to visit her after uni finished, she had just left for the day... if only i didnt hang around in the library ><""""
vivien's left for hk this arvo... i wish i could go to hk and shop with the other half of the world... *sobs*
what's with people and freaky emails??? gosh!!
anyhow~ i've had my rest for today...
SHOUT OUT TO ALICE COZ I CANT MAKE IT ON SATURDAY NIGHT!!! LOVE YOU HEAPS!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
love,
JYKW
Sunday, January 15, 2006
Ongoing Rants...
244PM
woke up over an hour ago...
tried to watch tv but nothing's on...
trying to do summer school work...
there seems to be a shortage of blue pens in my room... (???)
301PM
why is everyone vaccuming and cleaning when im trying to do work???
im hungry again... or do i mean im *still* hungry??
IE died just then, had to re-type my previous rant.
Microsoft sucks, but what can we do?
316PM
updating hotmail address book...
ok i am getting really distracted here...
326PM
just got called a promotions whore by Froozie...
QUOTE:
(l) f r o o z i e says:you're such a promotions whore, i swear! ;p
UNQUOTE.
i am going to focus on my work for the next hour...
346PM
cant stand it... i need food...
wish mum's back soon...
i need a... maid... ><""""
FOOD TIME!!!
530PM
剛剛看了 *哩咕哩咕新年財*...
now i wanna master mahjong...
647PM
i wanna get a straight perm...
ppls are coming back from overseas...
THAT'S SO GREAT!!
im not a nigel anymore, but then i still have summer school to go to... *daymn*
732PM
gonna go shower and make fried rice...
how about memoirs of a geisha on monday night?
849PM
whoo hoo!made my first PROPER-RESTRAUNT-WANNABE-FRIED-RICE!!
and it actually tastes nice!!!
1054PM
ok im gonna post this up...
nothing's happening and nothing's worth blogging right now...
raaaah!!!
JYKW
woke up over an hour ago...
tried to watch tv but nothing's on...
trying to do summer school work...
there seems to be a shortage of blue pens in my room... (???)
301PM
why is everyone vaccuming and cleaning when im trying to do work???
im hungry again... or do i mean im *still* hungry??
IE died just then, had to re-type my previous rant.
Microsoft sucks, but what can we do?
316PM
updating hotmail address book...
ok i am getting really distracted here...
326PM
just got called a promotions whore by Froozie...
QUOTE:
(l) f r o o z i e says:you're such a promotions whore, i swear! ;p
UNQUOTE.
i am going to focus on my work for the next hour...
346PM
cant stand it... i need food...
wish mum's back soon...
i need a... maid... ><""""
FOOD TIME!!!
530PM
剛剛看了 *哩咕哩咕新年財*...
now i wanna master mahjong...
647PM
i wanna get a straight perm...
ppls are coming back from overseas...
THAT'S SO GREAT!!
im not a nigel anymore, but then i still have summer school to go to... *daymn*
732PM
gonna go shower and make fried rice...
how about memoirs of a geisha on monday night?
849PM
whoo hoo!made my first PROPER-RESTRAUNT-WANNABE-FRIED-RICE!!
and it actually tastes nice!!!
1054PM
ok im gonna post this up...
nothing's happening and nothing's worth blogging right now...
raaaah!!!
JYKW
Clean Room...
it's been a while since my last post but heaps have been going through my head and man, everyday i feel like i want to post something up but i just dont have the time ><""
summer school's started and it's pretty fast i tell you. the pace is like 3wks/wk of summer school so 1 hour of summer school is 1 lecture of the semester course. yeh, we're in week 12 now... hahahha... so far i think im ok with stuff so, nothing to talk abt it here...
i got a bigger table to work on in my room now. and i was cleaning my room to make space for it and guess what? i found all these movie tickets in my desk draw...
in chronological order...
17/12/2002 - Ghost Ship
08/12/2003 - School of Rock
10/12/2003 - Texas Chainsaw Massacre
15/01/2004 - Last Samurai
16/04/2004 - The Passion Of The Christ
20/04/2004 - 50 First Dates
29/09/2004 - A Shark Tale
05/12/2004 - Saw
30/12/2004 - Incredibles
15/04/2005 - Ring 2
20/04/2005 - Amityville Horror
27/06/2005 - Madagascar
04/07/2005 - Mr & Mrs Smith
06/07/2005 - Batman: Begins
12/08/2005 - Wedding Crashers
28/09/2005 - Deuce Bigalow 2
29/11/2005 - Wolf Creek
now i am so sure i saw The Ring, Initial D, Hot Chic and many others at the movies and now i want my ticket back... hahaha... i havent seen a lot have i? oh well... i do have a dvd collection and a vcd collection! whoo hoo!!
and i also found tickets to other things i went to...
16/07/2004 - Finals 19/20th Century Concertos 1 at the Sydney Opera House (Sydney International Piano Competition)
20/08/2004 - Joey Yung Live Show Up 04 at the Sydney Entertainment Centre
22/04/2005 - Sam Hui Live In Sydney 05 at the Sydney Entertainment Centre
20/05/2005 - The Lion King at the Capitol Theatre
and i am soo sure i have been to some other concert recently too... i am going to start collecting the tickets i get... hehe...
who wants to watch memoirs of a geisha? I SO WANNA WATCH IT! but i have an exam on the 20th so i cant go and watch it when it comes out on the 19th. i really do believe that people should read the book before going to watch it because then you will be able to appreciate it more. and i want to watch it because of the actors. Zhang Ziyi is soo pretty, Ken Watanabe is soo handsome and Gong Li is just soo good at giving that bitchy look!! WHOO HOO!!
cant wait to see it!!
i'v got heaps more to go on about, but i'll do that next time...
HAVE A SAFE TRIP VIVIEN!!
JYKW
summer school's started and it's pretty fast i tell you. the pace is like 3wks/wk of summer school so 1 hour of summer school is 1 lecture of the semester course. yeh, we're in week 12 now... hahahha... so far i think im ok with stuff so, nothing to talk abt it here...
i got a bigger table to work on in my room now. and i was cleaning my room to make space for it and guess what? i found all these movie tickets in my desk draw...
in chronological order...
17/12/2002 - Ghost Ship
08/12/2003 - School of Rock
10/12/2003 - Texas Chainsaw Massacre
15/01/2004 - Last Samurai
16/04/2004 - The Passion Of The Christ
20/04/2004 - 50 First Dates
29/09/2004 - A Shark Tale
05/12/2004 - Saw
30/12/2004 - Incredibles
15/04/2005 - Ring 2
20/04/2005 - Amityville Horror
27/06/2005 - Madagascar
04/07/2005 - Mr & Mrs Smith
06/07/2005 - Batman: Begins
12/08/2005 - Wedding Crashers
28/09/2005 - Deuce Bigalow 2
29/11/2005 - Wolf Creek
now i am so sure i saw The Ring, Initial D, Hot Chic and many others at the movies and now i want my ticket back... hahaha... i havent seen a lot have i? oh well... i do have a dvd collection and a vcd collection! whoo hoo!!
and i also found tickets to other things i went to...
16/07/2004 - Finals 19/20th Century Concertos 1 at the Sydney Opera House (Sydney International Piano Competition)
20/08/2004 - Joey Yung Live Show Up 04 at the Sydney Entertainment Centre
22/04/2005 - Sam Hui Live In Sydney 05 at the Sydney Entertainment Centre
20/05/2005 - The Lion King at the Capitol Theatre
and i am soo sure i have been to some other concert recently too... i am going to start collecting the tickets i get... hehe...
who wants to watch memoirs of a geisha? I SO WANNA WATCH IT! but i have an exam on the 20th so i cant go and watch it when it comes out on the 19th. i really do believe that people should read the book before going to watch it because then you will be able to appreciate it more. and i want to watch it because of the actors. Zhang Ziyi is soo pretty, Ken Watanabe is soo handsome and Gong Li is just soo good at giving that bitchy look!! WHOO HOO!!
cant wait to see it!!
i'v got heaps more to go on about, but i'll do that next time...
HAVE A SAFE TRIP VIVIEN!!
JYKW
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