03102010 601pm

We have reached the tenth month of the year and I think it is time to start reflecting, looking back onto the year so far, and see what I have and have not yet done, so I can use the next 2 months to make 2010 count.

Let's start with my career.

What have I learnt this year from my day job?

I have learnt a lot this year from the troughs I have endured so far and honestly, I am happy to have hit a brick wall now than later. Earlier in my career than later. When my life hasn't been established yet and I still have time. Time to do what? Time to make amends. Time to start again.

Moral Support x 100 WIN

28092010 459pm

Someone sent me this today...

I think I will read it for motivation and moral support everytime I feel down...

~~

Me/ yehhhhhhhhhhhhh
hhaahha
http://www.cathaypacific.com/cpa/en_INTL/careers/flying/fa_requirements

Someone/ do it

Me/yeh
i should aye

Someone/do u have an arm reach of 208 cm

Me/i think so

Someone/u would be a good flight attendant

Me/I KNOW RIGHT

Somoene/and u would look hot in the outfit!!

~~

naww...

ta...

^_^b


JYKW

Ettiquette No. 1

13092010 155PM

This is the first post of many to come on ettiquette.

Office Ettiquette

Monday Ettiquette

1. Always wear a collared shirt
It's good to set a good impression in people's minds that you are busy. v.busy. on a monday, with client meetings etc.

2. Always have a spreadsheet open on your montior
Have cells coloured to make it look busy and hectic (just as hectic as your monday schedule).


JYKW

Just take it as a 'No'

0008 09032010

It has been 24 hours since I was injected back into reality from temple retreat. So far, my progress has been steady. Having sworn about three times during work hours, which doesn't count. Really. Profanity during work hours constitutes corporate culture.

Friends have been quite supportive so far - having faith in me that I will last at least 2 weeks. One close girl friend said 2 days. I appreciate her honesty. Others have voiced their support in me lasting for as long as I can. I'm giving myself a month. It's a long stretch this time.

Notice how my sentences are uber short this time? I feel like I have so much to say because during retreat, my thoughts were running a hundred miles per hour from left, right and centre. It's true when people say you can hear your thoughts in silence. I heard a lot of my thoughts and I can be quite psycho. If I were to say every thought I had, I'm sure someone would murder me sooner or later. Maybe sooner than later. Maybe, like, now.

I remember I used to blog about zero tolerances. I have new additions to the list.

Please clear mucus contents within your nose in private

I cringed when I typed that. Seriously, people should really consider how others feel when they are expelling nasal mucus in public. Either keep the wet, slippery slime up your nostrils or clear it out somewhere where no one can hear it coming out. Please.

Please cut your nose hair

Self explanatory.

Ok, it's late. I'll finish this next time.

tata

JYKW

Le Bonheur

13012010 100AM

N'ayez pas peur du bonheur
Il n'existe pas
Ni ici, ni ailleurs,
Da di da di da, da di dam

Nous allons mourir demain
Ne dites plus rien
Le bonheur conjugal
Restera de l'artisanat local

Laissez vous aller
Le temps d'un baiser
Hmm, je vais vous aimer

Le trésor n'est pas caché
Il est juste là,
à nos pieds, dévoilé
Il nous ferait presque tomber

C'est dommageable qu'on ne vive Qu'une seule fois
C'est le temps d'une joie qui s'offre comme vous à moi

Laissez vous aller
Le temps d'un baiser
Hmm, je vais vous aimer

Un peu de sel, dans la mer
Ne changera rien
On s'adore, on s'enterre
On trouve une main et on serre

N'ayez pas peur du bonheur
Il n'existe pas
Da di da di da, da di dam

Laissez vous aller
Le temps d'un baiser
Hmm, je vais vous aimer...

Laissez vous aller
Le temps d'un baiser
Hmm, je vais vous aimer...

Closer

SHOUT OUT: Happy Birthday...

15122009 6:58AM

I woke up yesterday feeling lonely. It was something I haven't felt for a while now yet it wasn't a foreign feeling to me. The four walls around me seemed closer and my room seemed smaller. Every sound was amplified and my clock's tick tock was pounding into my ears. I had woken up before my alarm went off...

The year that was 2009...

What a year! 2009 was hectic. 2009 was special. 2009 was full of hopes and dreams. 2009 was a year of many beginnings for me and watching this year roll by in such a hurry is leaving me dumbfounded. So much has happened yet I feel as if I have no recollection of anything from 2009. To take it further, I feel as if it's still 2008. Still waiting for the year of beginnings and new starts.

So I was thinking on the bus yesterday morning of all the things I am taking with me to 2010. Twenty-ten. Even the name is totally different to 2009. Two thousand and nine. So it must be different. It must have more to offer. It must.

In 2009, I was loved. I loved, too, and with that, I had hurt those closest to me. You hurt the ones you love most and I thank everyone of you you for your love, even if I have hurt you, neglected you or was a plain bitch to you. Once you give love, it is the most enjoyable and liberating feeling. But only if you don't expect anything in return. Unconditional love is the hardest gift anyone can give. It is only when you love unconditionally, with no expectations, no hopes and no desires, will you not be hurt by it. Others cannot hurt you. We hurt ourselves with our own love. It is true that we must love like we have never been hurt before. When wounds heal, the scab falls off. When we heal the wounds in our hearts, we must learn to face the world again without barriers. Without walls. Without scabs. The past cannot be changed and we must not let it haunt us by holding onto the wounds. Let it heal. Let the wounds be touched by the air and the bleeding will stop. The past will only re-enact if we play the same role again. Love is brave and if we love, we will be brave enough to play a different role. People don't change, but we do make choices. Choose love because it will heal your wounds faster.

In 2009, I lied. I was talking to one of my closest friends a couple of weeks ago about how I have realised that there is no one day that passes when we are honest to everyone and everything. Even white lies are lies. But what are lies? We lie when we want to hide the truth. When you lie, you deceive. I have stepped up to see how I am when I lie. Brain activity increases because we need to cover the truth. The truth is logical. The truth is true. The truth works. And when we lie, we need to lie logically. We need to lie as if it is the truth. We need to make the lie work. Hence, lies will only be followed by more lies. The vicious cycle is hard to break. You need to cover your tracks. You need to cover tell tail signs. How mentally tiring and how emotionally draining is it, if we were to live in a lie? Only the brave will stand up to clear the lies. Only those with courage will shoulder the consequences. And only those who are brave and courageous know how to love.

I'm taking these with me to 2010. So far, I have only packed 2 things in my luggage. There are more on the list, I'm sure.

You'll be the first to know.

JYKW

xxoo

Just smile and wave

18102009 8:56AM

It has been months or probably years since my last proper entry. Really, it has been a bad case of i just couldn't be bothered. But recently a close friend of mine suggested that i should start blogging again so i am taking her advice and pouring my thoughts into words again.

To me, words can do so much. That it can make or break me.

I didn't realise how much actually goes on in my mind. I've always thought i spoke out my feelings enough for everyone to see and know. Obviously i knew there are things that i would keep inside but i have never really gotten to know just how much thinking i do everyday. Coming to terms with the thoughts in my mind has actually been quite a tiring process. Maybe i dont really know myself as a person.

I've put a lot of effort in finding out how people feel and what people think and i have recently noticed that i spend most of my days' effort in satisfying others.

It's October already and over the past year so far, everything in my life has happened so fast that i probably had no idea what was happening. Everything seems like a blur.

Baby Baby Baby

11102009 3:23pm

yes it's been a long while.

here...

~~

baby baby baby .....

je veux des plans sur la commode
j'veux Tellier sur mon ipod
je veux l'amex black de ta mere
je veux la voiture de ton pere
j'veux sortir avec tes potes
j'mettrais ma plus belle culotte
j'veux une session un peu hot
j'veux bien qu'tu r'gardes mais pas qu'tu p'lote

baby baby baby ....

j'veux etre dans l'top de justice
la main d' Gaspar sur ma cuisse
je veux compter même sans les doigts
je veux les tiens au bon endroit
je veux pas prendre les escaliers
tien c'est parfait, tu vas m'porter
je veux que moi sur les photos
et j'veux poser pour Saint Lau
je veux des enfants surdoués
et j'veux qu'mon chien soit diplomé
je veux ta tête sur un plateau
je veux pas d' cake, j'veux de la coke
je veux sauter d'une grande échelle
je veux des glaces choco vanille
je veux tes boules à la myrtille

je veux danser comme Vanessa
j'veux voir son mec à Ibiza
je veux dormir quand tu te réveilles
et j'veux l'même T-shirt que Yelle
j'veux rentrer dans tous mes Jeans
et j'veux qu'tu rentres avec ta prime
j'veux des glacons dans mon verre
faire une souflette à ta grand-mère
j'ai vu ton ex, tu sais la sotte
dis lui qu'j'ai retrouvé ses bottes
j'veux pas noyau dans ma cerise
j'veux qu'tu redresse la tour de Pise
j'veux jouir dans une 2 chevauxx
et je vais l'faire derrière ton dos

~~

Friend told me i should vent again on my blog...

Yeh I might soon...

JYKW
xxoo

I'm 74% FOB

[x] Both of your parents are from Asia
[x] You were born in Asia
[x] You use the term "Azn"
[ ] You think DDR is cool
[x] You've watched lots of anime
[x] You like Korean drama
[x] You have stuff hanging on your phone
[ ] You think your parents want you to marry within your own race
[x] You eat rice almost everyday
[x] You drink lemon tea

X's so far: 8

[ ] You style your hair
[x] You have a bebo/myspace/friendster/facebook
[x] You speak languages other than English
[x] Your parents are strict (somewhat...)
[x] Your parents have high expectations of you
[x] You always get A's/B's on your report
[ ] You do Chemistry/Biology/Physics/Accounting
[x] You know your multiplication table (i KNEW them before...)
[ ] You play badminton or table tennis or Irish Pingpong
[x] You've seen the asian version The Ring/The grudge

X's so far: 15

[x] You go/want to go to a university and would NEVER consider an apprenticeship
[x] You own an asian car (Honda, Toyota, etc)
[x] You're not the only child
[x] You've gotten little red envelopes around February
[x] You know the difference between kung fu, karate and tae kwon do
[ ] Your mother tries to bargain even though the product is already discounted
[ ] You can solve a rubiks cube
[x] You have a box of noodles somewhere in your house
[x] You play video games

X's so far: 22

[x] Everytime you're going out, your parents ask you where you're going and what time you'll be home
[x] You have karaoke at home
[x] You've been to a LAN more than 3 times
[x] You own a gaming console
[x] You don't wear shoes in your house
[x] You can use chopsticks
[x] You get nothing if you do well in school, but punished if you don't

X's so far: 29

[ ] Your parents won't let you go out if you have school the next day
[x] You have asian songs on your computer/iPod
[ ] You don't like football
[ ] You like Soccer.

X's so far: 30

[x] You have a curfew ( i used to?)
[ ] You know what ulzzang/tb means
[x] You know what purikura is
[x] you like bubble tea (WHOOT!!! GIMME MY KIDNEY STONES ANYDAY!)
[x] Your parents bought you shoes many sizes too big so you can "grow into it" and wear it for years to come
[x] You've played final fantasy
[ ] You believe in fortune cookies

X's so far: 35

[x] You know what is bok choy
[ ] You've heard the song "Got rice?"
[x] You've had pockys/yan yan before
[ ] When you ask for your mom's permission, she goes "ask your dad"

Total X's: 37

Multiply your total score by 2 = 74%

My teenage life was 87% AWESOME

[x] Gotten detention. (ooh yeh detention...)
[ ] Gotten your phone taken away in class.
[ ] Gotten suspended.
[x] Gotten caught chewing gum.
[x] Gotten caught cheating on a test.

Accumulative Total: 3

[x] Arrived late to class more than 5 times.
[x] Didn’t do homework over 5 times (COUGH3u mathsCOUGH)
[ ] Turned at least 3 projects in late
[x] Missed school cause you felt like it. (mum told me not to go if i didnt feel like it)
[x] Laughed so loud you got kicked out of class.

Accumulative Total: 7

[x] Got your mom / dad etc. to get you out of school.
[x] Texted people during class.
[x] passed notes.
[x] Threw stuff across the room.
[x] Laughed at the teacher.

Accumulative Total: 12

[ ] Pulled Down The Fire Alarm.
[x] Went on Myspace , Facebook , Xanga , etc. on the computer at school. (it was xanga back then...)
[x] Took Pictures during school hours. (with those disposable cameras...)
[x] Called someone during School hours.
[x] Listened to an iPod , CD , etc... During class. (mini disk player... MDs...)

Accumulative Total: 16

[x] Threw something at the teacher
[x] Went outside the classroom without permission.
[x] Broke the dress code.
[x] Failed a class test.
[x] Ate food during class. (hey, i did that everyday... COUGH3u japCOUGH)

Accumulative Total: 21

[x] Gotten a call from school.
[ ] couldnt go on a field trip cause you behaved badly.
[x] Didn’t take your stuff to school.
[ ] Gotten a detention and didn't go.
[x] Stuck up your middle finger at a teacher when they were not looking.
[x] Cursed during class loud enough so the teacher could hear. (does screaming penis count?)

Accumulative Total: 25

[x] Faked your parents signature (i even did everyone else's parents' signatures)
[x] Slept in class. (didnt everyone?)
[x] Cursed at a teacher to their face (it was an accident)
[x] Copied homework

Accumulative Total: 29


MULTIPLY BY THREE : 29 x 3 = 87%

Slowness after a long night

23112008 738PM

Today... what can i say?

This pretty much sums up how everyone felt today...


Jess W: She's all alone.
Julie: Alone?
Jess W: Yeh, alone.
Julie: By herself?
Jess W: =S Yeh, by herself.



JYKW

MSN Random

091108 3:40PM

Today's MSN Random displays the purest form of nonchalance

Julie Thai says:
i'm a bitch sorry...

Yeh, im a bitch too... that's why... I LOVE YOU, JULIE!

=DD

Blog?

06102008

134PM

i am going to do what i used to do... rant and vent here instead of anywhere else on the internet.

when is this essay going to do itself? jessang invited me to join this FB group and it seriously speaks my mind. i am going to explode from bordem soon.

help me...

136PM

jessang just said i never comment on her FB pics... im going to do that right now...

ps. i still hate the new FB layout...

pps. ok im going to get some shit done now...

209PM

fk me... i have been changing my status on fb... AGAIN ><"


218PM

ok im off FB now... hopefully this 1 hour ban will last...

232PM

ok i need a break... i have been really productive over the past 20minutes. my word count has increased by ~200 and i have a feeling i will go over the 4k limit already...

645PM

I MISS MY FRIENDSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

MSN DOESNT DO ANY JUSTICCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE



ok back to it...


JYKW

MSN Random

051008 ~4PM

Today's MSN Random came from Justin...

Justin Mak says:
u have ur cantoglsih mixed up

LOVE IT! CANTOGLISH!

CANTOGLISH!

I CANT GET OVER IT!

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha LMAOROFLBBQ!!!!1111!!!!eleven!!!111



JYKW

Who Cares If Mooncakes Are Fattening?

635PM 15092008

Heya,

How are you all?

Before i start, goodness, i have to say this in case i forget again...

yesterday, i took a nap from 2pm until like 5ish. when i woke up, i looked outside my left window and saw blue sky, small clouds, some breeze and thought, hey it's still a nice day outside. BUT! then i heard this roaring and pounding like thunder and i was like *eh?* and so i asked my bro who was in the room next door if he heard thunder and he said yeh it's full pouring. i was like, *wtf?* and when i looked outside my right window, it was literally dark and gloomy, all cloudy and stuff...

NO JOKE!

i was literally watching the transition! omg! it was nice on one side and it was pouring on the other side! OMG!

~~~

ok now that's all done, today sucked heaps... if it wasnt for the wind, it would have been such a lovely day! gaah ><"

wow, i bought all these cuticle cleaning tools today. i felt sooo professional and good about myself until i started doing my cuticles. all hail youtube! if it wasnt for youtube i would have totally stuffed up. having said that, i did stuff up and dug the cuticle trimmer into the side of my finger. the nail polish is really stinging my finger right now. i dont think it's a healthy thing but oh well, it'll go away soon =P

~~~

SHOUT OUT: to everyone! happy mooncake day (for yesterday)!!!

who cares if mooncakes are fattening! just eat them! =DD

~~~

side note: if EA games ever think of releasing a Sims Music Album, i would seriously buy it.


The End


JYKW


PS. WHOOT! CONGRATULATIONS TO POOOOOOOOOOOOOJA ON HER ENGAGEMENT! WHOOOOOOT!

MSN Random

938PM 08092008

Today's MSN Random came from this particular person who thought she could survive without MSN and be able to get work done.

This was the first msg I got from her the moment she was able to log into her MSN account,

Jess Zhang says:
OMG MSN
Jess Zhang says:
HOW I HAVE MISSED U
Jess Zhang says:
i have realised that i cud not even survive one night without internet lol
JYKW says:
BAHAHA
JYKW says:
and i remember u saying smething like *that'll make me get work done*
JYKW says:
i am going to blog what u jsut said
JYKW says:
u are now immortalised
Jess Zhang says:
HAHHA
Jess Zhang says:
but ohh my goodness
Jess Zhang says:
last night was the loneliest night i've had in a long time
Jess Zhang says:
i had to put a movie on in the background for goodness sakes


It feels great to be *connected*, which reminds me of the time during high school when ICQ was THE connection and the first thing people would do when they got home from school was go ONLINE. I remember when i used to really love that *ding dong dong dong* sound the dial up modem made when it was connecting. Oh, the feeling of being connected. How wonderful.

This proves how humans are interdependent. That's why babies die soon after birth if they dont have human contact. Oh, contact... connection... ahh...


JYKW

Blue sky, light breeze, procrastination

1126AM 07092008

I am totally procrastinating and it could possibly be because I am avoiding to face the fact that my assignment is due this Friday.

Im feeling hungry but it's not like I havent eaten. Goodness, I think I have worms... =S

I just did a quiz on the Clinique website and guess which 'Shoe personality' I have?



I am so hot and trendy! Whoot!

It took me ages to figure out what was happening with the uploading so you guys better be happy that I am blogging.

I havent given shout outs for ages and since there have been SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO many birthdays lately, Im going to give a really general shout out to everyone.


SHOUT OUT: HAPPY BIRTHDAY, EVERYONE!


=P that should do it.

It's so great, today. The sun's out, it's a lot warmer than the last 2-3 days. The birds are singing. Ahh, it's a good day to read a novel with a nice cup of tea. =)

Far out, some dude just knocked on our door and asked for his daughter, Katie. WTF? I hope he finds his daughter =S

Enjoy your day and I'll blog again soon.



JYKW

I Did It.

1207AM 22062008

I have done it. I am now officially a mean bitch and it is like my head is saying one thing and then my conscience is saying another.

I seriously need to rant because I think I need anger management. I just cannot stand stupid people anymore. Mum said I think they're stupid because they're not following what I am saying and she said that is not how I should categorise people. I must say it's really hard not to think someone's stupid especially when everything you say is pretty dumbed down. Well, to what I think is dumbed down.

I think people get stress from work not from the tasks they have to do but the people they have to deal with along the way. I guess everyone would want the world to be run according to their own ideals. Everyone believes if they ruled the world, it would be absolute Utopia. But hey, back to reality.

I mean, I know I jump to conclusions but I have never seen someone jump to so many conclusions PLUS make so assumptions. It's not a nice feeling to get pissed off. But how hard is it to see something when it has been drawn out to you? Literally.

Everyone gets defensive and it's normal and most of the time people get defensive when they feel attacked. That's normal, too. I was pretty angry today. Angry because I was offended because I felt someone didn't follow my logic. And I felt that was plain stupidity. That was already enough until I felt my intelligence was further insulted. Man, at this moment, I am still struggling to go over what actually happened. Honestly, I think I blacked out from anger and there was a stage when I felt like crying. Oh God... I literally felt my face burning up. I don't think I was just pissed off. I was fking pissed off.

The thing is, everyone was just talking about their own opinion, which is not wrong per se (and it's not the first time). It's chaotic when everyone is on different channels. That's confusing and is probably the most frustrating thing anyone will ever have to endure. But why do I get so worked up about everything, anyway? I don't see anyone else being so emotionally attached to this. I think I take things too seriously and when someone blocks my way of reaching a result, let alone question my ability, I get defensive. Maybe I should just not take things as serious anymore? I just cannot bear to see something I have actively willed myself into participating so turn out a flop, where those who watch from afar and those coming after me will turn around and laugh at how much of a loser and a failure I was. That is how I feel right now and I don't want results like before. I don't want to turn into another burnt out flame. But what is there to do when everyone else looks at you and think you're the bitch for saying how you feel? It's like, 'Hey, I know I said that but I didn't mean it enough for you to say it?'.

I've been through this frustration before when I think about what I have gotten myself into? Far out, I have literally done what I said I will do for the past three months and at first it didn't feel like much but after 5 minutes, I was thinking, 'Oh... that was it'. Now what? I still feel like a total bitch who complains about everything and who everyone is scared of because I am a total Nazi.

And to add fuel to the fire, I hate the silence that follows after everytime I point out something that everyone complains about and bitches about but when it comes to confrontation, everyone backs out. I don't care if I am the one to voices out the negativity but just don't make me feel as if I were the only person thinking it and I am the only one picking nits. I don't like being the bitch but I am willing to do so as long as I don't have to go home and channel it out over something else. I totally believe in karma and honestly, it's all going to come back to get me someday. Mum and dad told me to really think about whether I need to put myself through all this? I mean, I don't need to put up with everything and continue to be the bitch - what is there to prove? I bend over my back even during exam times so I can make phone calls to people about things I don't need to care.

I have tried to talk to my friend about this and her and her sister said it's my conscience calling. Maybe deep down I think what I did was excessive. Maybe it was? I don't know. At this point in time, I don't know what's wrong and what's right. All I know is that I have split up a whole team because I was the one who voiced it all out.

Nothing's going to be the same again and I'll let you know if I decide to pull out because of this massive guilt trip I'm on right now.



JYKW

MSN Random

20062008 1228AM

Today's MSN Random:


Jess Zhang says:
I HATE YOU!!
YOU SUCK
Jess Zhang says:
quote that biatch


So I guess she hates me, now? =S


Love
JYKW
xxoo

MSN Random

01062008 2:33PM

Today's MSN Random came from Jess Zhang

Jess Zhang says:
I LOVE PARACETAMOL!


That explains a lot... I knew she was a druggo...