i've been the victim of a few backstabbing incidents lately. it doesnt feel great in the first place, and when those who you thought were close enough to you takes a step back and lets you stand there alone, it does make it worse than it should feel.
i really want to know how it really is out there in the commerical world. life as itself is already full of backstabbing, then what's going to happen when i enter the actual workforce?
another thing that has happened over the week is that i've had people telling how they so *didnt know jess can be sad, down, depressed and anti social*... i guess it's a good thing how people see me as a happy person and how i help make the atmosphere happier. but looking deeper, it is really hard to find someone who you can totally trust and release your true feelings to. i know parents just want to help, but when the people i try to confide to tell everything to their parents, an unnecessary amount of adults end up knowing. then things just spread and comes back to my parents. they feel as if i have so many things kept away from them, but to be honest, the people spreading rumours and gossip are really creative. arent they, aye??
people come to me for gossip, but they dont realise that i dont have any gossip. i really dont. then how can someone who didnt know anything be the one who spreads the gossip? if your parents talk about you to other parents, dont come to me and act as if im the one to blame for rumours because you should tell your parents not to talk to the wrong people in the first place.
get me?
... because words can do so much ...
About Me
- JYKW
- There is someone out there for everyone. Each day that passes, is a day closer to each other. It is not because of love. It is because, you were meant for me.
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Hi there,
I don't really see the point of telling parents these sorts of things. It's silly. Friends are family should be different. Why go home and tell your parents something that your friend has told you in trust. Not only is it breaching trust, it's absolutely pointless. Parents might want to help - but they're nosey (...especially asian parents) and always think they know best.
Try saying all of the things you want to release to a kind stranger (ok, not an absolute stranger - someone you know at least). They'd have less incentive to go and do silly things afterwards, because they know nobody you know. And you'll feel better for releasing.
I guess the people who tell you that they didn't know you could be sad and depressed aren't really paying attention eh? Don't think of the fact that they see you as always happy as good - think about this as an opportunity to show them what your character can really be like. What sort of friend thinks their friend is like a constant. Highly inconsiderate and totally selfish. Of course you can get sad and lonely. You're not chopped meat?!!?
And if people come to you for the sole purpose of gossip, that's hardly helping either.
Chin up, you're not alone ;)
You'll find someone that you can tell things too eventually - and when you do, you'll have taken a step in towards being a happier person.
At the very least (and I don't think this is reassuring in the least ), I'll keep reading here and posting irrelevant things ;p
Cheers,
uniSteve
heya~ sif u can't tell me! haha.. but hm.. u haven't told me much woor haha.. anyways la.. read the above dood's comment haha, it's good :).. and.. long.. =\
omg thanks steve~~
the thing is, there are people who you can tell certain things to and others who can't because they wont understand the whole situation...
at least i know there are ppls out there who are listening (or reading) to my rants...
=) thanks steve~~
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