Ahh...

cant believe i've pulled through 1 whole week of uni already... and how do i feel? well, since all my classes are in the late arvo - early evening, the latest is FIN310, which ends at 9PM on mondays, i've been feeling really wasted by the time i get home... which in a way is a good thing because i've been going to bed earlier (yeh midnight is early) and waking up earlier, too! (O M G 9AM IS SOO DAYMN EARLY!!) i guess it's helping me change my body clock back to something that's more... normal? haha...

waking up early is good, as i've realised recently, because time seems to pass by slower during the AM hours, especially between 7AM and 11AM, and time tends to speed up after 11AM... so yeh, i recon if everyone woke up a bit earlier, and slowly, woke up before 9AM, they'd be able to get HEAPS MORE done before the sun sets... yeh? i shall lead by example... muahahaha

property law is hectic, gosh, UNI IS HECTIC... like, omg im a 3rd year now... far out, heaps of people are gonna grad. soon and i'll be stuck at uni (with jo and a few others) finishing our law degree... (assuming we all finish our 1st degree by the end of this year... omg touch wood for hinting the F word...) i wonder where i'll be in 5 year's time... i bet you i'll still live here with my parents (not that there's anything wrong with that... i quite like the whole idea of having a maid-slash-servant who's not making a living from the cleaning and cooking she does for me... hehe) wonder what job i'll have... omg im fully hoping that it'll be something good enough to satisfy my shopping needs... hahaha...

im feeling a bit *out of touch* with the whole society, kinda... i dont listen to the radio, i hardly watch tv, i dont even chat on the internet... omg what have i been doing!!?!?!?!? uni, work, ahh at least i get to meet up with my *spiritual* friends more often (omg did i just sound like a freak? or like a 3 year old with a WHOLE BUNCH of invisible friends?!?!) i guess staying in touch with my spiritual side keeps me balanced from all the, so to say, falsities of this physical world... (and no, my spiritual friends are actual people i see... ok, i better stop digging further down...)

piano is screwed because i literally dont have time to practice, and being a 7th grade, that's a pretty bad sign... i cant say i hate piano, but then i really do feel the candle's burning out... even though when i do get the random chance to sit down and play something, i feel kinda good but then... oh well, bottom line, im lacking motivation...

i didnt join anything new this year during O week, because i know how gay i can get and im like a typical chinese (or AZNs?) when it comes to being *active* with stuff like societies and stuff... i'd like to go to a cruise though, but then i dont drink and i'm starting to turn into an introvert (bad bad bad... *sigh*) so yeh...

im gay...

somehow i feel like there's not much time left... no time left in terms of what? i cant explain...

maybe i should just quit piano once and for all and just move on? but then it'll turn into something that's left unfinished in life and like when im 80 or something, i'd be like, omg i cant die yet, i havent even finished piano properly until 8th grade... *sigh*...

i've realised im really sensitive to what people say about me... be it to me or behind my back, aka gossip and rumours... and being the anti-social me (wow, how does that sound?) it seems to be turning into a vicious cycle ><""" i need to find out what's making me anti-social... argh!!

omg i dont even know the name of NSW's premier... i cant say his name... omg how gay... but then i know nicole kidman's engaged to that singer guy who (to me) looks like an aragorn-wannabe... ahh LOTR... i miss the faze...

far out i miss high school...

okok, enough depression, better snap out of this and move on... shower time!

yeh yeh, until next time

tata la~

JYKW